It's 1.30am in the morning.. The wind outside is really strong now.. Have those howling sound outside my window.. Quite creepy.. Actually I'm quite sleepy.. But my hair are wet.. Can't sleep now..
One day down. 8 more days of nightmare to go.. I'm going to SURVIVE..
Oh! I don't I need to 'die how many times' but yet again, I met Vincent Ng today AGAIN. wahahaha... Please girls, don't kill me. Yes Jean, I agree that he looks better when he don't smile. Really cool look ah. haha.. He was in this policeman uniform.. Yea.. =)
My AP for today is Erica.. I was helping her with contacting the artists.. Initially, I need to ask the AP at the OB (Shu Yi, the AP I black-listed) whether she can release Wen Long earlier. OMG... Just listening to her voice just piss me off.. She's so ultra RUDE over the phone too. She's SO RUDE. ArGh... Hey.. We all have a job to finish.. So please don't think that you're the only one who need to complete stuff.. Please learn to speak nicer.
Yea.. Guess that's all... Need to sleep soon... haha.. Tomorrow will be a better day... Will be left with 7 days of hell and 71 days to end of contract.. Yup..
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
10:44 PM
Winamp buzzing: Mayday - Rang Wo Zhao Gu Ni
I'm learning to like Mayday now.. Cuz I want to go for their concert with Kolay and Clara at the end of the year!! haha... OH! They will be in Mediacorp for the NKF charity show this weekend together with 5566.. And there's Energy too right?? AHHH.. I hope I bump into them!!!!!!!!!!! *crazy grins*
*SiGh* My precious off day just come and go like that... Tomorrow onwards, it will be the start of my NIGHTMARE... I'm going to work 9 days in a row... I think after surviving that, I'll be almost fearless of any kind of schedule... What can be worse than a 9-day work week? I have a total of 5 studio-shoots and 4 outdoor-shoots.. There's this day when I'd morning shift, and the previous day I'd studio till 12mid...
I think I need a lot of encouragement and support.. I'm really scared to start the 9-day work week... I shall count down to the end of the 9 days... Yup...
Haha... Actually I think I am quite an optimistic person.. Cuz I'm always doing stuff to motivate myself despite my constant grumbling.. haha.. What a thing to say... Maybe something good will come out of this 9-day work week? hmm.. Maybe after that I get a lot of breaks (yea.. I'm so naive to think so... BUT.. Anything is possible..!).. Maybe I won't need to work so much after that... Maybe there will be a new PA attach to this show!!! Anything is possible... RIGHT?! haha...
What to do... Grumble also have to work... Don't grumble also have to work... Might as well make myself happy and make the best out of it.. Rather than being upset and make my life miserable....
Been slacking and rotting around at home today... Making my activity level to the lowest.. haha.. I'm becoming a CSI lover.. I'm liking the show more and more!!! haha... Watched this movie on Channel 5 too... Called Snake Island.. Something like Anarconda... Just that it's not about a BIG snake, but a lot of snakes of various sizes... Haha... Like what KY said about me.. I'd been a pig the whole of today!!! Sleep and eat.. haha... I was eating BBQ flavour Lays Potato Chips this afternoon while watching TV.. wahaha..
Ok... Enough of my craziness... More grumblings for the next 9 days... Unless I manage to see Mayday or 5566 or Energy and take photos with them... Then I won't grumble so much.. haha..
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
9:28 PM
Winamp buzzing: Lil Jon & the Eastside Boyz feat Usher - Lovers and Friends
Finally survived the day with 4 hours of sleep...
Ok, seriously I think that either the whole Tong Xin Yuan committee is mad, or that my scheduler really hates me or something. Just check out my schedule for the next week!!!! ArGh.. I just can't stop grumbling. After my precious off day tomorrow, I'll have to work and work and work and work non-stop continuously for 9 freaking days before I actually can have a offday. Totally maddness... I think my scheduler IS MAD. Winnie, the other PA for this show, and I were really grumbling about about our working schedule. However, she was like saying that she should grateful cuz at least she is not as bad as me. *SiGh*
This is not the worst... I'll have to be with the producer and the AP which I black-listed 5 days in a row.. This is really a test of my patience and endurance man... I can survive... I can...
Oh! I just checked out the photos which my friend-cum-colleague Baofei has posted at her blog!! It's the photos of her cruise-cum-working trip. She was doing the sitcom "Meng Dang Hu Dui" and they went on a cruise cuz their show required them to do so!!!! AHH!! So lucky of her right!!! JUST WHY MY SHOW DON'T HAVE SUCH STUFF!!!! *boohoo* What we have only a crazy scheduler who's rushing everyone, working us all out like we are robots. Really, not only me who thinks that she's mad. A lot of my APs and producers think so too.. She's just mad... Scheduled the filming day for the sake of it.. cuz we have to finish, so die-die also schedule... She never think whether we are tired a not, or whether our body can take it. She just schedule it and she expects you to take it.. ARGH.... I really wish I can be lucky enough to bump into Chunhua one day, and she will ask me how's work, and I can voice all my complains to her... SO SOMETHING TO THAT MAD SCHEDULER!!!!!!
Ok.. Back to Baofei's cruise trip! haha.. Her photos are really nice. She even got picture of the crew!! haha.. I think the picture of the crew is the funniest. Don't know why I think so.. hahahaz~
Somehow, Baofei's cruise trip actually make me think that my job isn't THAT BAD cuz at least it's quite interesting.. And then, looking back, I get along really well with all my APs except the one who's in charge of filming 51-60 cuz I black-listed her. I just think that she's too mean to her PA, and always get so stress and irritable. But then... I think I should do something to make myself to like her more.. So that my next week will not be such a hell... But guess what?! Seems like Winnie don't like the 51-60 AP too.. So I'm not the only one. I really want to really get along with them well so that working will be fun and less stressful.. At least I've people to talk to and gossip about people.. haha.. OH WELL...
I'm off pigging... meaning.. SLEEPING.. I'm SO TIRED...
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
9:24 AM
Winamp buzzing: Blue - Breathe Easy
Initially I was scheduled outdoor (OB) today.. Don't know why.. I just had this urge to sms my APs for today to check if I were still their PA for today.. Then guess what? It ended up that my scheduler (tong chou) made a switch.. I'm in studio today instead.. One of my AP, Janet said that she heard something cropped up for me.. Think they had a switch due to what happened to me.. Well, maybe I should say they did it for me.. But they didn't inform me at all.. How am I supposed to know? What if I didn't ask? I'll end up reaching there at 9am. So crappy.
Though I'm grateful that I'm in studio today, I'm not that grateful still cuz I'm scheduled morning OB tomorrow.. Unless there's a change and I'm not inform again...
75 days away... 10 more weeks.. Feel so far away.. Please come quickly... I want my contract to end soon!!! QUICK END... haiz..
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Monday, April 04, 2005
10:19 PM
Winamp buzzing: Hu Yan Bin - Waiting for You
Today is the last day for my godmom's funeral. Reached there at around 9am.. We got this band with a singer to sing some songs that my godmom likes to listen.. My god-silblings were taking photo with my godmom for the last time.. For memorial.. My god-brother actually asked me if I want to take a photo with my godmom for the last time.. I found myself couldn't smile at the camera for the first time.. It rained in the morning, even before we set off.. We all walked in the rain when we set off.. Oh well.. It was a cold morning...
I kept sneezing on my way home. Caught a mild cold.. Slept for a while in the afternoon, and I went to dig out some old photos that we took with my godmom to show my mom..
I realise that I can't accept it.. I just can't believe that she's gone. It's not like those people who had prolong sickness for a very long time, and people are sort of prepared for the worst for a long time.. My godmom had been well and all.. Everything happened so suddenly.. Suddenly, she was hospitalised.. Suddenly her condition worsen.. And now she's gone.. Everything within 2 months.. Someone whom I knew all my life is now gone.. There's so many things in my life that she hasn't been part of.. Like my University graduation.. Like my first offical pay-day for my offical job.. Like the day I get married..
There wasn't any last words from my godmom.. When she had the stroke for the first time, she seldom talk anymore.. Life is so unpredictable.. Really... Truly understood the meaning..
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
11:59 AM
Winamp buzzing: Li Sheng Jie - Yuan Zou Gao Fei
Finally got this song!!! This song is really nice!
Ok.. I'm going to say something that will make some girls out there really jealous of me. First of all, I really think that me and Vincent Ng very 'you yuan' cuz I just keep bumping into him at office la.. haha.. Secondly, I met him today AGAIN. And yes, we smiled at each other. *GRIN*
Tomorrow is the last day for my godmom's funeral.. *SiGh* Don't know how I will feel tomorrow.. Don't want to think about it..
Yay... 77 days to end of my contract.. Today was Lisa's last day. I'm so jealous. I wish it was my last day of work there too..
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Saturday, April 02, 2005
11:56 PM
Winamp buzzing: Mario - Let Me Love You
I'd studio filming today, so I only had to reach around noon. Bumped into that CA Fei near the camera unit. Damn suay manz.. Not having OB also can bump into him.. He was damn crappy la.. Asked where I was heading to, and I told him I was heading to the studio. Then he was like so lame. He was like, 'Wah.. We so 'you yuan'. I also heading there.' I was like -_-"" haha.. But he was really funny la.. Say what we 'you yuan wu fen' and those lame lame stuff.. Then say what we should go out for movie sometimes.. And I TREAT him... I was like -_-"" again lor.. I was like saying he should be the one who treat me instead lor.. So diaoz right! But then it's fun to talk trash with him la.. Can bring up your mood.
Anyway, studio was quite good.. I was with my favourite artists.. namely Adrian Pang, Wen Long and Jessica. They are really nice people.. haha...
Left work at 6pm to head down to my godmom's funeral.. Same old stuff..
hmm... Jean's right.. I'm less than 3 months away from the end of my working contract.. I have to bare with it!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~ I'M A SURVIVOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GIRL POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, April 01, 2005
11:59 PM
Just got home from my godmom's funeral.. Feeling really down right now..
I was so surprised to receive a sms from Felicia (Chin) this afternoon saying that she, Pierre (Png) and Alan (Tern) sent their deepest condolences.. Wonder who told them.. But anyway, news spread real fast there..
*SiGh* Life is so fragile... so unpredictable.. You really don't know what is going to happen of you the next minute.. My godmom still came to my house-warming on New Year's Day.. In such short time.. So much things happened.. It's too fast for me to absorb every bit of it.. She was all healthy and all.. I knew that her right-leg was giving her problem, but she went to see the docs and had x-ray done. Don't know... I still brought her a nice Christmas Log Cake last year.. I kept thinking back to the past, when I hadn't moved to Jurong West.. I was staying in Clementi.. My godmom just lived at the opposite block.. Whenever it rained, it would be either she called us to inform us, or vice versa.. We would sometimes bump into each other at the coffeeshops near our blocks. She would always treat us drinks.. My godmom and my mom are good friends. They often go shopping together (like what we youngsters say.. 'hang out').. My godmom cooks really well. Every 'Duan Wu Jie' or Dragonboat's Festival, she would make rice dumplings for her family and for us too.. Her rice dumplings are the nicest I ever eaten!!! Love it totally!!! Then, sometimes, she would cook prawn noodles for her family, and for us too. YUMZ~ Her prawn noodles rock too. NICE. And of course... A lot of other nice food... My godmom is a really good cook!!!
I still remember.. On New Year's Day at my house-warming, godmom gave me this angbao for me to buy new year clothes.. I was like so shock. I told her there's not a need to cuz I'm working now. She replied back saying that I was only working for the moment, and I'm not married yet.. So I still have to accept the angbao. I replied her back that next time when I'm married, I'll give it back to her. She smiled and agreed that when I'm married, it will be me giving her the angbao..
Now, it just got into me that I no longer have my godmom with me.. No more buying of cakes for her during Mother's Day and Christmas.. No more rice dumplings, prawn noodles from her.. No more giving her the angbao when I get married...
I can't really accept it.. I think I need time..
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10:18 AM
Winamp buzzing: Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing at All
I applied leave for today cuz I know that I'd stay long at my godmom's funeral yesterday night, and I am supposed to work morning shift today.. So I took leave so that I won't be so tired and no need for me to rush here and there.
I'm in love with this song recently. I don't know why.. Like the tunes, like the lyrics, like the voice.
Anyway, let me update you all about my job... This PA from my show, Lisa will be leaving at the end of this week. So, this show will only be left with 2 PAs. 2 PAs doing a 60 episodes show?!?! You have to be kidding!!!!!! Well... Unfortunately, they are NOT kidding with us at all.. It's TRUE. Just when I thought the time is getting better... *SiGh* So, basically from next week onwards, it's always me and Winnie rotating studio and OB shifts. This is sick. We now have to work 6 days a week, and it's all 10 hours of filming. MAD. There's this day whereby I end at 12mid, and for the 'next day', I'd to reach at 4am. MAD RIGHT. Wah laoz... They can't possibly put Winnie instead cuz she has outdoor filming the day before and it ends at 1am.. So, I'm supposed to be the 'earlier' one who's in studio. Thanks la... Seriously, I think the entire committee of this show is really working us (the PAs and the artists) out..
You know what keeps me going? The thought that the day of the end of my contract is ending soon... haha... It's just 79 days away. OMG OMG... It's starting the '7' digit already! Before we know it, it will be of a single digit! WAHAHAHAHAHA....
I really hope Chunhua employs more PAs. On Wednesday, I saw this new guy who's supposed to be the new PA. I was like quite happy cuz I thought there will be someone new to help me and Winnie out.. But heard that he will be doing one of the new dramas that will start filming soon... Sianz... I hope Chunhua employs more... So that one of them can come over to my show to help us out.. If not we're going to work like crazy... I just think that I'm damn damn damn unlucky to do such long drama as my project.. I'm just a part-time... Damn unlucky...
Ok.. That's all for now I guess...
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12:31 AM
Winamp buzzing: Lin Jun Jie - Chi Bang
Only reached home at around 12mid from my godmom's funeral.. I feel totally lost. I don't understand howcome she can leave us so suddenly. It's only for 2 months.. After her first stroke attack.. I don't understand.. Why stroke can lead to her interal organs to all be infected and spoilt. I DON'T UNDERSTAND. This is beyond what I'd learn in school and read about. In such short period of time, it can lead to her interal organs to all be infected? So fast? Why didn't the hospital do something? I don't understand...
Well.. I think it's really nice to actually find angels around me, especially at my workplace... On Wednesday afternoon, I received a call from my mom saying that I better rush down to see my godmom before it's too late.. I immediately broke into tears. My producer for that day, Fen Fei actually let me off immediately when she knew the news. Kelvin Su was actually nice to give me a light hug and kept giving me a squeeze on my shoulder to calm me down.. Terence Cao (yes, it's him) was actually nice enough to offer me tissue... And, our mediacorp driver Sajali for driving me to TTSH in our mediacorp bus.. Thanks a lot dudes... Then.. Back in office, there's Chunhua who's really understanding and gave me leaves.. They are angels in our life...
And also, not forgetting those who cared for me... You all are angels to me too...
I'm really tired.. Don't know why... Yea...
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