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Thursday, March 31, 2005
9:22 AM

Winamp buzzing: S.H.E - Wo Ai Ni


My godmom passed away this morning.

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
9:07 PM

Winamp buzzing: Guang Liang - Tong Hua


I'm so scared. I heard from my mom that the doctors said that my godmom's condition is not very good.. She may not make it through these few days or end of this month... The doctors asked her family members to be mentally prepared... OMG... I'm very scared.. I'm scared that my godmom will really leave all of us... I went to the temple at Bugis with my mom today.. Prayed for my godmom for her to recover soon.. Please pray for my godmom too.. Please let her make it through this time...


I can't think... I'm really scared...


Returning to work tomorrow... Feel quite re-charged and ready for it. Yup... Wish me luck. I'm just 82 days away.

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Monday, March 28, 2005
9:27 PM

Winamp buzzing: Frankie J feat Baby Bash - Obsession (Amor no es amor)


This song is absolutely beautiful!! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!!



Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Well, today is an OFF DAY for me. Hee.. I was trying to help SQ print out some information regarding Computer Engineering and Computer Science. Initially, I wanted to print using my brother's desktop cuz the printer was attached to it. BUT, I realised that he changed the setting and removed my account, and included a password system.. I was so pissed off!!! Luckily, I'm not an IT idiot, I can unplug the printer and install to my laptop. However, I don't know why, it just don't print... It prints out funny stuff.. I was like super pissed off at that time.. Guess what I decided to do! I plugged back the printer to my brother's desktop, and decided to guess the password. LOL.. There's this hint to the password, and guess what! I actually got the password right!! WAHAHAHA...... This just prove me and my brother are really siblings. We think alike! LOL.


I lazed my afternoon away. Watched 'Cold Squad' on AXN, then watched 'Flight of the Phoenix' that KY had lent me.. Well, I must say that I'm glad that I didn't go and watch 'Flight of the Phoenix' in the theatre. I thought the movie was so-so only.. Nothing very special... very exciting.. or whatsoever.. It's just.. normal.. It's just a very predictable movie... A group of people stranded in the desert after a plane crash.. People became very desperate.. Lost hope.. People became very angry.. Lots of fighting due to desperations.. End up someone came up with an idea to save everyone out.. Very predictable plot.


Going to watch 'Desperate Housewives' later!!!! It's been a while since I last watch it..


I'm really enjoying life without having to work.. haha... Think I really had a good rest.. Felt re-charged and ready to face that stupid job of mine le.. heez..

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Sunday, March 27, 2005
11:54 PM

Winamp buzzing: Liang Jing Ru - Yong Qi

I HAD MC FOR TODAY!!!!! WAHAHAHAHA... I think I'm one of those rare ones who loveeeeeeee getting MC. I used to hate getting MC for school cuz I hate missing school. Now, I love getting MC cuz I love missing work!! hahaha~

Mind you! I'm 84 days away from end of my contract!

Well... Having gotten MC for today, it makes me having a 5-day break! wahaha... THIS IS 'SHIOK'. It feels like those one-week holidays that we used to get in school.. Really give me the chance to stay at home and chill.. And just get myself together.. Just rest... Get what I mean... Yea... Prepare myself to go back to that hectic job...

Met Kolay at JE library to borrow some books.. I'm quite glad she asked me along cuz I feel like getting myself some books to read too... I want to feel like a student again! haha.. Mad ah me.. haha.. Anyway! I managed to bump into Sau Yan there!! Is it fate or what!!! haha... Really glad to be able to at least see him once before he returns to Hong Kong on Wednesday... haiz... Going to miss him so much!!! *SiGh* Couldn't turn up for the dinner last night with Benny they all... And yet couldn't turn up to send him off at the airport on Wednesday... Sianz...

I was thinking of changing my blogskin to something brighter... But I just can't find one that pleases me... And I have no idea to design one for myself... So I'm so sianz...

Oh!! Watched Volcano just now?? Ok.. I didn't catch the movie when it was out.. like so many years ago... (*note! Their handphone was still those water-bottle-like kind! It was like SO LONG ago!) Really nice... But kinda reminded me of The Day After Tomorrow... Hmm.. I got to realise that movies like Volcano, The Day After Tomorrow, Deep Impact... etc kind of films are similiar... But people still go and watch them cuz its something that... may happen to the earth.. someday... one day... Really nice actually.. Imagine something like those in the films happened in real life... GeEz.. haha.. And, I realised that these films were like saying places like New York or Los Angeles are the most ill-fated.. Know why? Cuz whenever there's any disaster, it will sure to strike these places... LOL.. Okok.. I'm kidding..

Kinda tired... Going off soon.. Going to hit the books I borrowed today.. Till the next time!

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Saturday, March 26, 2005
11:15 PM

Winamp buzzing: F.I.R - Wo Men De Ai

About Gemini - The Twins
May 22 to June 21

Traditional Gemini traits: Adaptable and versatile, Communicative and witty, Intellectual and eloquent, Youthful and lively

On the dark side....Nervous and tense, Superficial and inconsistent, Cunning and inquisitive

Details....................
Gemini, the sign of the Twins, is dual-natured, elusive, complex and contradictory. On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness. The sign is linked with Mercury, the planet of childhood and youth, and its subjects tend to have the graces and faults of the young. When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are. Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless. They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower. To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine. Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.

Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word). Their good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts. They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children. Also like children, they demand attention, admiration, and the spending on them of time, energy and money, throwing tantrums if they don't get what they want. They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely. They can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles. On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.

Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind. Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions. But their intelligence may very well be used to control and unify the duality of their natures into a most efficient unit. If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.

In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.

Geminians can be successful in many walks of life though their general characteristics tend to make them unreliable. They are often skilled manipulators of language, in speech and writing, and may be: debaters, diplomats (though in politics they are more interested in theory than practice), orators, preachers (brilliant rather than profound), teachers, authors, poets, journalists, or lawyers. In business any work which combines quick-wittedness with a change of surroundings suits them; working as a traveling salesperson, brokerage work, or dealing with the public in any capacity is right up their alley. Because they are dispassionate, logical, rational and analytical they make good scientists, especially in the fields of medicine and astronomy. They can also make excellent members of the Armed Forces, for they take danger no more seriously than anything else and can earn themselves a reputation for devotion to duty and heroic acts. In the arts they may excel in music, painting and sculpture. They make good psychic researchers of a sceptical kind. Negatively they can degenerate into confidence tricksters, thieves and even adepts in the black arts.

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Ok... I thought this write-up on Gemini are quite detailed, and to a certain extend, true.. I had bold those parts which I think it's referring to me.. haha... Its SO TRUE.

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10:30 PM

Winamp buzzing: Lin Jun Jie - Ju Li

I won't be going to work tomorrow.. Going to see the doctor instead.. Still feeling kinda sick cuz I still get occasional slight pain at my stomach... Don't know what's wrong with me...

I'll only be returning to work on Wednesday... This is going to be a long break for me.. Just like those 1 week break that we used to have in school.. For me to rest well.. And hit back to that tiring job of mine after working there for 3 months offically.. Another 2 months plus to go actually.. I'm so amazed by myself for being so strong. I surprise myself sometimes.

Oh.. Did I mention that I watch a bit of "A Season of Miracles" on TV yesterday? Sometimes, it just amaze me how fairy tales just happened, like how it was portray in movies... It's so beautiful, but yet at the same time, fake to me...

My stomach still feels bad... ArGh....

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10:40 AM

Winamp buzzing:

Ahh... I feeling sick la... Had stomachache and vomited last night... Sickening... Can't go out today...

Yesterday was alright.. I went shopping with Kolay and Eunice.. Bought the Esprit top that I'd long for for so long... Then.. I bought this skirt too.. Well.. Ya... Happy to buy stuff... Watched Miss Congeniality 2 wit Kolay, Eunice, Sheng Qiang, Kuan Yong and Gavin.. It was quite alright la.. The movie... Just typical of Miss Congeniality... So.. Ya.. Not much to comment...

Maybe if I don't get well today.. I can get MC for tomorrow.. wahahaha...

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Thursday, March 24, 2005
10:23 PM

Winamp buzzing: Five For Fighting - 100 Years

FINALLY!!!! haha... I've been looking forward to end of work for today.. I sort of fell down today.. I missed a step when getting up the mediacorp bus, and my right leg hit against the steps REAL HARD. It's sort of swollen now.. *sObz*

Cameraman was Tommy again. He's back to his normal self today. We all were drove mad by our "Baby" cuz he kept crying, and we couldn't film the scene. We felt really bad when the baby cried really hard.. *SiGh* Tommy was really funny. Whenever he heard the baby cry, he would have the >.< face. LOL... Then I was like telling him that he can't have "baby-phobia" cuz he's getting married this JUNE!!!! haha... We kept teasing him that he should get ready to have one baby soon too.. hahahazz.. (Baofei! His wife-to-be is your producer!!)

NOT WORKING TOMORROW!!!! WEEEEEE~ Going out tomorrow!!! I love days that I don't need to work...

Oh, I still don't like this P and AP that I was attached to today. I still think they suck. I HATE MY PRODUCER'S TEMPER. Sickening. I was quite attitude actually.. Didn't mingle with them, did my job.. Didn't joke with them... I joke with my crew people only... haha..

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
11:04 PM

Winamp buzzing:

Time flies for today.. Which is good.. Guess what? Edwin was one of my part-time today. Not very surprise at all cuz I saw him a few times at Mediacorp already.]

Well, we filmed at a Pub today. My cameraman for the day was Tommy.. He's so weird today.. Not joking.. Very fast-tempered today.. hmm.. Don't know what's wrong with him. Finally met that cute soundman, Jeff, again! haha.. It's always one month see him once. Filming was rather smooth.. Fighting scenes.. *SiGh* I hate fighting scenes actually.. Damn draggy.. Kelvin Su hurt his thumb! He gave us all a shock.. It was quite swollen actually.. Poor him..

After the Pub, we headed down to Parco Bugis Junction. Oh damn it.. There was SO MANY people surrounding us to watch.. Gave me and Yilin headache literally.. One funny thing happened. We were filming at this 'street-side stall' when an aunty came to the store unknowing that we were filming, and she just kept looking at the stuff.. Well.. I thought it was quite bad to ask her to go away cuz it would sort of affect the business of the stall.. But she was in the way.. So I thought of going up to her and tell her nicely to wait a while..I went up to her, and I said, 'Er.. Aunty ah..' Then she turned to me and ask, 'Oh, xiao jie zhe ge duo shao qian (How much is this?)' I was like HUH?! So I actually replied, 'Er.. I don't work here.. You ask that girl..' and I pointed to the stall tender. Stupid la.. One of the crew guy, we called him 'jiao gia (little bird)' heard it, and he laughed damn loud la... Stupid... But I think my expression was quite funny when that aunty turned and asked me that question...

Working MORNING tomorrow... Really early.. Need to reach at 7am.. Sian.. Working with that hateful AP and P tomorrow... Don't care... I'm going to out-do them.. Irritating pigs. You know, I realised something.. Those APs who just got promoted from PA are nicer.. They treat their PA better... And those Ps who just got promoted from AP also treat PA better... Those who got into their positions too long, they just got sooooo HL that they just treated their PA like dirt. Stupid.. I curse those who are like that become liao chu nu.

You know, the people I'm working with really affect my mood of the day.. I just hope that AP and P whom I hate can change my perspective of them.. So working with them won't be such a dreadful thing... I realised that even though when a day was tiring, with nice working people, time past fast and quite enjoyable to a certain extent..

AHHHHHHH~ I have to be more street-smart.. Meaning be more alert of stuff... I think I'm too naive.. HOW AH... Actually, to the people there, I'm like SO PURE.. like a xiao mei mei... Well.. I really think I'd to be more street-smart... My Producer said something that set me thinking... "Bei ren pian le dou bu zhi dao (You don't even know when people cheated you)". Quite true.. Need to always protect myself.. No one has the right to mis-treat you... You don't owe anyone a living.. So be such a easy target to be bullied...

I hope I get a nice crew tomorrow... Hope to see that cute soundman tomorrow again (hee!).. ahahahahaz!!!!

Need to do some homework to prepare myself for tomorrow... I DON'T WANT TO GIVE ANYONE A CHANCE TO PICK ON ME TOMORROW. Watch it piggys.

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
6:07 PM

Winamp buzzing: Hoobastank - Disappear

I just went scouting for new movies.. Those upcoming ones that seem to be good movies to me.. I went to watch their trailers, and wow, their trailers are great. Go check them out... Hmm.. Here's the list of good movies that are coming up..

April 15 - The Amityville Horror
This movie is actually based on a TRUE STORY. It's pretty interesting actually. It catches my attention when they say that it's a real event. Go search online (if you're as kpo as me) on it.. It's interesting readings la.. Basically, its about this house at Amityville. A very brutal family tragic murder happened there. After that, a family moved in, and quickly moved out in 28 days, claiming that the house is haunted.

April 22 - A Lot Like Love
Ok, this is one romance movie that I think I'll go catch.. Hmm.. I'm those who seldom watch romance movies.. But don't know why I'm quite into them recently.. Hmm.. It's pretty sweet.. funny... Some really sad parts too.. But of course, all romance movies end with a 'happily ever after'.

April 29 - xXx: State of the Union
Well, this is the sequal to the previous movie, xXx. Actually.. It didn't really interest me cuz I didn't watch the first part.. But it still seem nice..

May 6 - House of Wax
Another horror movie!! Well.. It has Paris Hilton in it. LOL. Erm.. I actually don't know what to comment on it..

May 19 - Starwars Episode 3 - Revenge of the Sith
Needless to say...

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2:43 PM

Winamp buzzing: S.H.E - Wo Ai Ni

AHH..... Spent my entire morning travelling to and fro from home to PJ, then from PJ back to home, then home to PJ again. Stupid siaz...

Well, today is my OFF-DAY. Wahahahahaz... I'd decided to spend my day finishing up my University application stuff... So, I headed down to PJ all ALONE (*sobz* cuz everyone's working..) to find Mr Siraj to help to fill up this appraisal form for NTU scholarship. The thought of the JC2s are having their common test now just slipped my mind. On my way there, I was like wondering why there's so many PJ students around when it's suppose to be lesson time. Bumped into Liru, and that's when I knew that they are having common test now.. haha.. So dumb of me.

I was lucky. I met Mr Siraj the moment I stepped into the school compound. We went into the General Office, where he actually helped me fill up the form. I just sat at the waiting area of the GO, and watch the people. It's really interesting. Cuz today is the day where the sec 4s know their posting, and alot of them came to PJ to appeal to get in. Pretty interesting to see them la.. It's nice to see your own juniors.. Get what I mean.. *SiGh* Too bad I'm not part of their Orientation!!!! Ahh... It will be sooo nice.. Want to be back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss the 'Orientation gang' that was form during the Orientation we organised last year. It was so much fun together..

I actually planned to head back home for a rest, and fill up the rest of my particulars before mailing out the form.. When I reached home, I realised that I actually need Mr Siraj to sign on the evelope slip. Stupid la... I'd to go all the way back to school to ask Mr Siraj to sign on it... Travelled to and fro... I think I spent most of my morning on 172.

Actually.. I think I miss school a lot. I miss being part of the life in PJ.. It's just so memorable.. The life there... Actually studying is not that bad afterall...

I think I really miss school... And I'm 89 days from the end of contract. Its getting nearer!

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1:11 AM

Winamp buzzing: Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want

Something 'interesting' happened at work. Really 'interesting'.

I had studio filming today (Yippy!). Well, at around 10.15pm, we were filming our second last scene when suddenly, we heard the sound of someone cutting their nails with the nail-clipper. It was when the tape was rolling, so everyone was like o_O at the sound. I went to work around the area to see who's the one cutting nails. Studio 6 was rather big, so I just work around the compound where people can slack.. The studio was a scene of a factory, so there ain't a lot of place where people can slack. When they finally stop the tape for the play-back, I walked around the whole studio 6 to see who's the one clipping the nails.. Well.. There's no one at the back of studio at all. I was like O_O when I walked back to our filming area. One of the cameraman was like telling me this kind of thing is very common. Stupid la.. It was 10.30pm lor.. Talking about such things.. Especially when I actually walked one round round the studio to check lor.. Stupid.. That cameraman was like telling me that it's very common around here... Things like that happen at other studios too.. haha.. One day.. I have to grab the cameramen to tell me stories!!! Wee... So exciting...

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Sunday, March 20, 2005
10:54 PM

Winamp buzzing: Hoobastank - Disappear

Today was a much better day compared to yesterday. I'd the funniest crew ever. They were all from Channel U who transferred over to Mediacorp.. I'd a funny short cameraman, Ah How. I always laugh at short cameraman.. I think I'm quite bad to do that... I'd the funny CA whom I said I sort of miss yesterday, Fei. Actually I don't miss him today. He was being super mean to me today la.. purposely shout into my ear cuz I blocked his way when he was keeping the camera tripod stand.. And he blew his cigarette smoke on me on purpose.. ArGh.. Make me smell like cigarette... Then.. I'd a funny soundman... He's just funny la... And a funny lightingman..

My director called the crew the F4, excluding the cameraman.. cuz she thinks they all look alike.. haha... And, with the cameraman, she calls them the 5566... LOL..

Went to the forested area in Punggol.. Went there to feed the mosquitoes only.. haiz.. But that place is really... un-Singapore-like.. Don't know.. Just surprise that one part of Singapore actually looks like that.. With sea and forest... It's so... not Singapore... haha..

Going into studio tomorrow!! I actually like studio.. NO SCORCHING SUN!!! wahahaha... I'm glad.. Hope this week pass fast...

Anyway, I just keep thinking of the movie, Starwars Episode III - Revenage of the Sith, that will be out this May 19th. I'm really looking forward to watching this movie. Just a few days before, I watched their trailer. OMG. It is FABULOUS. Well, for those who wants to take a look at the trailer, please go to www.starwars.com for further links. This trailer is 90sec.

Actually, I haven't come across another girl who is as fond of the Starwars series as me. Its hard to find guys who like it too.. Some don't understand the movie.. Which I found weird.. Maybe I'm just being weird. Anyway, YES, I'm really looking forward to this movie cuz it's the one that pieces the 6 parts story into place, and link the parts together!!!

Now, being part of a TV production myself, I really envy those who are involved in this HUGE production.. Even though it's really though cuz it's such a huge scale production, it will be really GREAT... Every single scenes in the movie is done in studio. They build every single scene... Really great huh... (thinking of our own scene in studio which is so... fake...) And, their studio is REALLY BIG... Geez... Being part of this production will be such a GREAT experience... hmm.. Maybe it's cuz I've an interest in Starwars.. Then I think being part of the production of the movie is great... I've no interest in selling fishballs... So I basically have no interest in my current show.. It's so boring...

Basically, for this episode, it's the one that Anakin turned to the dark side.. And downfall of the jedis... expect A LOT of fighting scenes.. Cuz it's what it is about. Shoot.. I want to get hold of "Attack of the Clones" before I watch ep. 3...

Do check out their trailer, and the makings. I watched them online too.. Really nice..

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Saturday, March 19, 2005
10:38 PM

Winamp buzzing: Jay Chou - Yuan You Hui

I need to listen to some Jay's songs to lighten my mood.. MY DAY JUST SUCKS BIG TIMES. HATE TODAY. I HATE TODAY. I HATE TODAY.

Basically, everything just went so long when we over-ran at our 2nd scene. Sometimes, I hate it when my AP asked me to write que sheets for them. C'mon, when I had nothing to do for that scene, maybe you asked me to write for that scene was still alright. For this scene, Yaodong had to be very agitated and cry. I'd to standby to pass him tissue papers you see, and there, my AP asked me to write que sheets. Then, I'd to answer the calls received by our production phone. Damn it la.. I am REALLY SICK of picking unknowing calls cuz I always had to pass it back to my AP. When I know who's calling, for example if its Pierre, I'll answer it cuz I know he knows who I am.. Damn it la.. Then, everything just dumped to me to do. I write que sheet, I pass Yaodong tissue papers, I answer phone call received by production phone. IDIOTIC.

Then, when we reached our 3rd scene at a different location, everything went wrong again when the FCO couldn't get the car we needed for filming on time. RUSHED AGAIN. I'd to help the artists, and help AP, and help director. WAH LAOZ. GO TO HELL MAN. YOU ASKED ME TO DO EVERYTHING. DO THIS DO THAT. WHEN ONE ASKED ME TO DO THIS, THE OTHER ASKED ME TO DO THAT. Who am I going to help first? Sorry, I thought I'll help the artists first, but then my AP would grumble grumble, saying "Quick!" What the hell la... You know what is spread work load? I'm supposed to ASSIST you, not do everything for you. When you see me running here and there, trying to help everyone with everything, couldn't you just help me by a little.. All you do is follow behind the director, and parrot whatever she says. IDIOTIC. I wasn't that blur when I started work, but when she just started to rush EVERYTHING, I started to get a bit blur.. When everything just seem to be done by ME.. I just think I could almost die. I just kept running to and fro for things. I don't know why. I wanted to do things before hand, like preparing for the next scene, but my idiotic AP asked me to stay put. I mean, I'm supposed to make sure that stuff are right. When in between filming, I can go and make sure the next scene stuff are alright. But NO! She didn't want me to go away. So, I went to give artists cue to start.. etc etc.. And what she did? Stood next to the monitor and write que sheet. When we only had a pair of walkie-talkie, it's hard for me to give cue to both people at different place, especially when the shot size is very tight. I can't split myself into 2. When I'm taking care of one person, I can't go to another person. Can't you be kind enough to just run to him and tell him, instead of asking me to run to and fro to the 2 different person? ARGHHHHHHHHHHH... IDIOTIC PIGS.

Seriously, I really dislike my AP for this group more and more. Allowing me to take half-day leave the other day for me to go to NTU was one matter. Her working attitude sucks. And, I DESERVE that half-day off. I'm going to University this July. I'm not YOUR WORKER. You can't not let me go to university openhouse. There's some AP whom I like.. It's like they make you feel as if you're their assistant... You are there to assist them in stuff, not DO that stuff for them that kind of thing... Cuz I myself have my own work to do... Like recording the clothes and making sure my artists all wore the right clothes. I see my job as very important, cuz mistakes like that were made before and I don't want myself to commit it again. I do my job, AP do their job. I HELP my AP, not take over their job.

Sickening. I felt SO SICK of my AP the whole day. There's SO MANY THINGS to do, and mind you, you only have ONE PRODUCTION ASSISTANT. Can't you just help, especially when you know you are running out of time? Sickening woman. Stinko attitude.

*SiGh* The whole day, I kept this thought in my mind... 92 days more to suffer.. It's ok... haha.. Yea.. Also, I quite miss some of the crew people... I miss the funny CA Fei.. Cuz without him... Not much laughter la.. Cuz he was always the one who always disturb me and make me laugh.. Miss my gossip propsman... Too bad today it's not him... If not I'll have someone to help me with SO MANY things...

92 days more... I can endure this stupid job.

ArGh... I HATE TODAY.

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Friday, March 18, 2005
10:05 PM

Winamp buzzing: Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

Feeling quite weird right now... Don't know why. It's just those OLD feelings. It's been a long long long time since I felt it. Feel so unfamiliar, yet at the same time familiar. Am I contradicting myself?

He's someone whom I see as someone special. He still is, just differently right now that's all. I just find that it's quite a waste we aren't that close now... Not that in touch with each other right now.. I don't know how it happens too. Just recently, I received an email that that he's updating his address book.. those kind of email... Ya.. That's when I realised that he had moved house. I sent this quiz to him, and that's when I realised that he didn't know I'd moved place too.. Well.. That only proves that our memories of each other actually cease at secondary school, or rather, JC1. Pretty sad isn't it? I just feel like I'd lost a good friend... Don't know why?

I know he used to read my opendiary, but seemed to have stop after a time.. Don't know why? And I don't know if he still reads my blog.. I think if he does, he will know I'm referring to him. It doesn't really matter to me anymore cuz it's been such a long time..

Don't know.. I just feel.. sad. Certain things in life... It comes and goes.. Seem to have lose it.. I'm just sad for my lost.. Oh well...

It's been a long long time since I last wrote in my personal diary.. I realise it's missing.. Wonder where it has gone... Hmm...

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9:35 PM

Winamp buzzing: 3 Doors Down - Kryptonite

Ok.. Here's this website you can go to see some pics of the place I work.. Credits of the pics go to Baofei. Thanks girl!

http://www.geocities.com/chacha_4ever/work.htm

Anyway, I went to Starwars Offical website just now and watched the trailer for Episode III!!!! OMG OMG OMG !!!!! IT IS SUPER DUPER NICE!!!! I'm like SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE SHOW!!! GEEZZ.... The FORCE will return will return in 62 days! AHHH... So excited about the movie!! HAVE TO WATCH IT!! HAVE TO WATCH IT!!!

But the problem is..................................... I can't find people to watch with me leh.... My girlfriends are NOT INTERESTED in the movie at all... So, I'll go with all my guyfriends... But the problem is that I may not have break on weekends.. So... How? *sobz*

STARWARS!!!!!! MUST WATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO CHECK OUT THEIR 90sec TRAILER AT www.starwars.com

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Thursday, March 17, 2005
10:38 PM

Winamp buzzing: Lee Hom - Xin Zhong Ri Yue

Talking about Lee Hom... The variety shows department was having this rehearsal today.. Or is it tomorrow? The show got Lee Hom!!! Ahh... Couldn't watch the rehearsal... It was just outside the wardrobe... Ahh.. I want to see Lee Hom.. Think the actual show is on Saturday. Maybe I'll bump into him somewhere when I return to work on Saturday. wahahahaz...

Work was pretty alright today.. We were filming in this Spa shop for men... Stupid la.. Due to heatiness and lack of water, I actually had nose bled there.. Then stupid Pierre thought I'd nose bleed cuz I saw him and Wenlong strip into their shorts only. Stupid la...

I was having a pretty interesting time with my lighting man, Chris. He was taking my papers and pen, and started drawing on them. hmm.. His sketches looked pretty good worz.. He was like drawing those characters from the show.. Pretty nice la...

Oh! My director for today is Bi Zhu.. The director whom I think has the most awful temper. I was pretty sianz when I know I'd to work with her today.. Super sian to see someone who those black black face.. Get what I mean? haha.. Seems like I am not the only one who thought so. My propsman for today, Dong Nan (transferred from Channel U), also thought so. We spent some good time gossiping. hahahhahaz...

Yay... Off-day for tomorrow again!!! Wee.. So happy.. hahahhaahz! =p

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
10:18 PM

Today is my off-day too!! haha...

I went to TTSH with my mommy to visit my god-mom.. *SiGh* Really sad to see her like that.. Don't know.. Sometimes I saw her tearing... omg.. Please let her be well soon.. How can someone who's so well and healthy be like that now... haiz...

Anyway, something very funny just happened. At first Benny asked me to help me test his mic over MSN audio. I didn't have mic so I actually told him that I can't have audio conversation with him over MSN. BUT GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!? He could hear me!!! OMG... I was like "EH! I DON'T HAVE MIC." LOL... So fun... Really fun lehz...

Next time talk to me over audio lor! hahahah... Think so fun...

haha.. Tomorrow working again... Friday not working again... Yay...

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10:32 AM

Winamp buzzing: S.H.E - Wo Ai Ni

I was tortured by the University Admission forms last night. It was damn ma fan... I went to look at those application forms for NTU and NUS respectively, and I thought NTU application form looks shorter than NUS application form. So, I actually started off with the NTU application form last night. It was totally hellish man... I spent such a long time on the application form, and there's so much to fill.. especially the part to apply for Nanyang Scholarship... zz.. Stupid.. Haven't finish the application... Damn stress...

Anyway, yesterday was a GREAT DAY!!!! I went window shopping with Sidney around Orchard. Did I just said window shopping? haha.. Yea. I'm so broke that I can't spend on anything. I saw this super nice Converse jacket!! Walked around to help Sidney find a suitable boardshorts. We bumped into so many PJC people... Some of our batch, some of the current JC2s. (Aiyoh! Next week common test still walking around Orchard!!!)

During dinner time, we met up with Kolay for dinner. We were considering dinner at NYDC, but changed to Pastamania. However, when we were in Pastamania, we changed our mind to eat at Yuki Yaki. Hey!! That's a great place to eat!!! Really.. I think I'm quite 'mountain turtle' for not eaten there before, but it's a great place..

Ahh... Had a great day yesterday!! Thanks pals!!! hee...

Ok.. Need to go back to my University application...

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
2:02 AM

Winamp buzzing: Ryan Carbera - True

Actually, I found myself enjoying studio filming more than outdoor.. Especially today! You know why? Today is a super duper warm day, and I found myself working in that well air-conditioned studio. wahahahahahha... No need to suffer under the sun.

hmm... I really think that the cameraman, Bobby is quite weird. I'd accidentally given him my hp number when he asked me to mms him a Jay pic. Of course I'd send.. After that he sms me quite often but I never reply. He also sms me to ask me for another PA, Winnie's number. I told Winnie about it and we were both feel quite weird about this person la.. You know, we heard that he's MARRIED lor... Don't know what's up with him.. Today when I was on my way to work, he even called my hp to just talk to me... -_-... lame right? Don't know what's up with him.. Seriously, married man are supposed to be stay far away from.

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Monday, March 14, 2005
8:12 AM

Winamp buzzing: Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

I've submit my application for the Teaching Scholarship.. Well.. I sort of lose sleep cuz I was wondering if I should apply for it.. But I did in the end.. Its sort of complete if my brother help me fax my secondary CCA records and SAT scores there..

I'm 97 days to end of my contract.. You know.. I sort of counted.. I sort of need to work for another 13 weeks... With 2 off days per week, meaning I need to work 5 days per week, I sort of having another 65 working days only. Hee... That sound pleasing...

With all those calculations, do you all know how desperate I am for the end of my contract? Yea... I think I'm the dumbest person on this entire universe to accept such contract job. I can't quit and I need to live my life like this... Luckily it's not for the rest of my life.. I can't believe I did this to myself. I am someone who will always make myself happy.. And I can't believe I got so crazy that I accept such job that make myself suffer...

I really look forward to University life.... Really...

NO, I should say I look forward to my birthday.. Cuz on the day of my birthday, I'll be 1 day away from end of contract.

Whatever it is, I'm not going back to work there anymore. Not even stepping in.

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Sunday, March 13, 2005
9:04 PM

Winamp buzzing: Jay Chou - Wa Jie

One conclusion for this whole week. SUCKY. I'm way too UNLUCKY for this week.. Really unlucky.. I think I'd the unlucky star with me this week... Need to listen to some Jay Chou to ease my mind..

At first I thought today will be rather relaxing considering I'd be gone by LUNCH TIME. It turned out not so.. I continued to be unlucky.. Sometimes I think it's hard for me to please everyone.. There was this artist from another agency engaged by Mediacorp to act in this current film.. And she wanted me to pass her somethings just as my director (for today is Li Wan) was talking to them.. Then Li Wan sort of shouted at her (or was it me?). I mean.. It's so hard to be me.. I need to help the artists and at the same time my director.. *SiGh* Don't know.. Just feel so... Caught in the middle la... It actually spoilt my morning.. The first scene was still alright.. The 2nd scene was the worse one.. Really tiring.. cuz a lot of things need to do.. Cuz there was this bag of mini toys that Pierre was supposed to hold and he would have to drop it.. And we took a lot of different shots for that dropping thingy... So everyone had to help pick those mini toys up, as well as avoid getting knocked down by cars.. And it's down there at that DAMN HOT Seraya Road... That wasn't the worst part.. There was this part that Pierre was supposed to fall down.. My AP already told me to bring out knee guard in case Pierre needed it.. But I forgot.. I didn't bring it out at all.. LUCKILY Pierre said he no need to bring the knee guard so actually no one knows that I didn't bring the knee guards at all. *Phew* Somehow, that also show that I was quite lucky in a way.

I got to like my crew people more and more... Just got to know them better... As in more comfortable with them la.. They are really a bunch of really funny, and sometimes super hao se guys la.. haha.. Guys mah.. What do you expect.. But they are rather nice la.. No matter what, they still manage to bring a smile to my face by saying some stupid things.. Just like Fei. He was actually quite funny today la.. He told me that he's only 20 years old, and I really don't believe him. Fei was really funny la.. Asked me why does he see me everyday. I was like 'How I know?' LOL.. Then he was like, 'I know you want to see me right.. So you purposely see who's the CA for the day and join the group right!' Damn lame la... But it was funny enough to make me laugh la...

Guess what time I actually left my location at Seraya Road? 1.45pm. Damn late la... It was supposed to be LUNCH TIME but it was like damn late la... Half day also got let off at such late time... Rushed back to keep stuff etc... And took a cab home to shower and headed down to NTU..

I was damn stupid la.. I took 199 in to NTU and I didn't know exactly where to alight cuz it didn't get into NTU at all.. So I wasted a good $1.13.. I rush to take the shuttle bus instead.. haha.. I think I was damn stupid la... KY just brought me to those booth that I was interested in, and I just took their brochures and I went off lor.. I was damn famished at that time, and the only thing that I was interested in was eating. haha! Well, we had a rather nice time at NTU.. Got dragged into this lame game by the emcee to play against the faculty staff and professor.. DAMN LAME LOR... But we got this big hamper anyway. haha! The guys got the hamper, we got this smaller one. haha...

After that.. We just sat down and talked to Yanto for a while before he actually brought us around.. haha.. Quite nice.. Like walking around the campus instead of those exhibits.. Oh.. Talking about those exhibits, whoever gave me things on faculties, I just take.. One guy from the Student Union actually came up to me and give me a Student Union newspaper. I was like "Eh?" I got those Union face ah? LOL. Yanto was like dragging all of us to the Union Orientation Camp.. ahahahz.. 6 days worz... Exciting! haha... Then, those people at this sports booth used water gun to shoot water at us!! Damn stupid la.. At first I thought it's raining, then I looked up and the sky was fair. So, I turned around and saw this guy at the booth shooting water at me.. Damn lame la...

*SiGh* Work for this week sucks.. I was so unlucky.. I think I stayed in the studio for too long till I forgot how it is like for outdoor filming.. haiz.. Hope I won't be unlucky anymore.. 98 more days to end of contract.. I can make it!

Really... If you want to ask me, I regret taking up this job. But since I'd taken it, I'd to continue with it.. Somehow.. I can take it as a training ground.. To train my perserverence... I always change my mind a lot.. So I must make sure I finish working here... Ya... An experience that I will never forget cuz it was a really tiring experience... It also make me realise that this kind of job is NO GOOD.. I used to think that this kind of job is really nice and cool.. But NO! I no longer think so. Getting an office job that has weekend off and from 9am to 5pm is then the BEST JOB EVER!!! haha...

Ok.. I want to go and read my university stuff..

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Saturday, March 12, 2005
9:12 PM

Winamp buzzing: Eminem - Lose Yourself

Ended work late today.. Finished packing stuff only at around 7.40pm. So, I took a cab home. haha.

Work was alright today.. Just that I was used as a 'free part-time actress' again. -_- Really diao you know... My director (Ah Foo) wanted the character Yao Dong was acting to bump into someone while running after the character Xiang Ping was acting. It was impromptu lor.. So, as the crew people are ALL guys, propsMAN is a MAN, my AP is much bigger size than Yao Dong.. That left only me as the perfect target to bump into Yao Dong. haha.. For those who likes Yao Dong will envy me DAMN MUCH la... But too bad he's not the one I like.. *SiGh!!* Ok ok.. I'm kidding.. Well, I didn't know how the knock would be, and neither did Yao Dong. He didn't think the impact will be THAT BIG.. He actually planned that when he knocked into me, he's going to just in time to pull me back again.. But when we actually bumped into each other, the impact was SO BIG that I actually sort of 're-bounced' back due to the impact ok... He was so shock, and so am I. That shows something... That shows that I'm really light. hahahahhaha!!!! =X Anyway, my director loved that shot cuz it was a REAL fall and everyone's expression was REAL. Too bad my cameraman, Tommy, didn't get that shot right.. Then we took the the second take, and my director said it was very fake cuz before I actually fell, Yao Dong already went to catch me from my fall.. The way my director said this was damn RA la..

Oh well, they saved another part-time's pay. Aiyoh... Damn sianz.. Always got asked by my director to do such things.. Those who don't know will really think I working there as extra.. Aiyoh...

Oh! When I was on my way home, I met Alan Tern! I was talking to him about the Accounting faculty cuz in case for those who don't know, he was from there. Yeaaa... He asked me for my results lor... And guess where he was from... HCJC... Win liao.... He told me that Accounting is quite dry and need a lot of memory... haiz... HOW... I'm sooooooo confused about those courses!!!

I applied half-day leave to go to NTU openhouse tomorrow!!! I'm sooo excited about the half-day leave!!! hahahhahhaahahha... I'm so excited about the openhouse!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's going to be fun and enriching!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Friday, March 11, 2005
11:02 PM

Winamp buzzing: Nicole Kidman & Ewan Mcgregor - Come What May

ARGH!!!!! TODAY WAS MY WORST DAY. EVERYTHING JUST WENT SO WRONG. KELVIN SU GOT ALL HIS CLOTHES WRONG. It wasn't really anyone's fault totally... It was his fault in the sense that he recorded wrongly, and it was my fault for not pointing out to him that he took his shirt wrongly... So.. Ya...

You know how everything can just go wrong when you are unlucky? Everything bad just happened.. When I realised that Kelvin got his clothes wrong, I was ready to fly back to the office to take for him. BUT, when I called my driver for today, Salleh, he was in the toilet doing BIG business... SO, I was like cursing and swearing... DAMN NERVOUS beyond believe ok... Idiotic...

When I finally returned with the top, my director said it was alright.. She filmed it with this new set of clothes, just that Kelvin has to remember that he wore this...

Everything just feel so wrong..

Some of the crew guys are rather nice.. They can cheer people up.. They just talk nonsense, and it can actually make me smile for a while. haha..

The only RIGHT thing that happened to me is turning up for PJC Talent Night 2005. I met Sheng Qiang and Eunice and headed down for it. Thanks Yin Chong for the ticket!!! haha.. It was rather nice to be back there.. Looking at people going into the LT for the event. It just reminded me of last year!!! When we were queing up to go into the LT, Eunice and I were like saying how it reminded us of last year when we were cutting the tickets for the people!! haha...

Watched all the performances for today before heading home. The performances were alright.. Just like last year.. There's some that I really like, and some that I don't like at all. I love the guy dancers!!! They danced a song by JAY!! wahahahhaa... So cool.. LOVE THAT ONE!!!! There's this cousins who sang opera.. Pretty interesting.. OH! I love Darius and John's performance!!! They performed "Love Me"!!! Nice one... The bands are alright... That's all...

This reminded me of last year.. Actually I watched all the performance last year too.. haha.. Actually WATCHED every performance even though it was a council event. Know why? haha.. I was the one taking photos of the performance for people.. LOL.. Xiao Hui and I were sitting at the stairs with A LOT of cameras around us, and just kept snapping photos.. hahaz..

Ahh.. So fast... That was one year ago... I feel old..

haha.. Ok.. That's all for now.. Need to sleep soon.. Nightz!

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Thursday, March 10, 2005
9:20 PM

Winamp buzzing: Hu Yan Bin - Waiting For You

I really must thank Mr David Chia and Mr Wong for telling me about studying Mathematics at University level!! I'm still scared of the idea of studying Mathematics at University cuz Mathematics is REALLY DRY. But on the other hand... Accounting is also dry... So what am I talking about? hmm...

Well.. I've decided. I'll finish ALL the applications on 13th March, this Sunday. Know why? I'll be going to the NTU Openhouse. So, after the openhouse, I should know what I want basically.. So I can make the choice. Yea... And by then, I'll decide whether to go for the Mathematics course for the scholarship..

As for today... Work starts once again after having a day break.. It's been such a long time since I woke up at 5am.. Really sianz about it.. Work ended early today!!! wahahhaha... It always make me happy when work ends early. Filming at the market area in the morning. I really hate filming at such rowdy and crowd place.. People always stand around and watch the filming, and they usually talk really loud.. Very hard to control.. Especially when I'm a girl.. Some "Ti Kou Pei" will really piss me off!!! ARGH. After lunch, it was filming in shopping centre!!! I love it! It's cooling, no scorching sun.. etc! haha... Ok, I think those guys in crew love to disturb me about my voice. WAH LAO. Damn irritating ok.. My voice is NATURAL, and I'm born with it.. Yap, my lightingman for today purposely immitate my voice to talk to me. Irritating. ArGh... I know how some people can be so amaze at my voice.. But.. aRgH...

Another day passed like that.. Yay.. Another day nearer to the end of my contract.. After working in Mediacorp, I'm definitely not going back there to work anymore. Working as holiday job for fun of it is still alright.. Prolong working there will kill me. Somehow, its weird.. I hate it everyday the fact that I've to go for work.. But somehow.. Depending on who's my P, AP, actors, and crew.. Sometimes, working days can be really nice... I think Kolay is right... It all depends on the people I work with... Even though that can be true.. I still prefer to NOT work weekends and be with my dear friends... I guess I'm just finding somethings for work to be nice.. Yea..

University life... Something I'm really looking forward to.. I'm really looking forward to all those orientation camps!!! I love going for such stuff!! hahaha... Yanto already sort of dragged me into the Student Union Orientation Camp for NTU (that is if I'm going NTU that is...).. hahaha! So exciting... Everyday, I'm nearing to my Uni life... I'm really glad!!!

I've become such optimist...

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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
10:05 PM

Winamp buzzing: Lin Jun Jie - Hui You Na Me Yi Tian

I feel totally stressed out.. REALLY STRESSED OUT. Feel like my eyes going to pop-out any second.. I've been staring at this computer screen since 7pm.

Initially, I was overjoyed when I received my UserID and password for my application for the Teaching Scholarship. Then, I started filling up the application, and that's when the hell starts. I didn't need to fill in any of my results at all cuz it's all there in the government's data. Honestly, I think my results seem so... common. Nothing very good... So it seems like such a joke for me to apply for the scholarship. Also, they wanted our SAT I scores. I was like 'WHAT THE HELL'.. My first taking sucks.. And when they did away with the SAT crap, I didn't re-take, so I was stuck with that stinko 1160 stupid score. Ok.. They must be thinking I'm DAMN lousy. Then, I reached this section that asked us to fill in the courses and university that we're applying to.. I have yet to apply for any university yet.. SO, I skipped that entire section... Then, I reached the WORST section.. The one that asks us to fill in what we want to read at university level in event we are selected for the scholarship. I pondered for a LONG while whether I should put MATHEMATICS as what I want to major in... Maths at university is totally different. I'm almost intimidated by the modules. I don't know if I can make it. I really don't know.. I consulted Mr David Chia... He took Mathematics at University level.. And he told me that its very different from JC Maths.. I'm sort of know it already.. But I don't know how different it is.. I really don't know whether I should go for it a not...

Haiz.. I don't know. I want to go for teaching.. But I feel like I can only teach Mathematics... And if that's the case, I'll have to major in MATHEMATICS in university level... DAMN SCARY ok... I'm scared.. I'm stressed...

Someone enlighten me.. I feel that I need to talk to someone senior... Someone who will have all the answer to my questions.. I need to talk to someone. I need to talk to someone.. Why no one can give me any good answers to all my doubts? Mr Siraj can't. Mr David Chia can't. WHO?

*SiGh* I'm totally stressed up. I feel a headache coming.

I need to apply this FAST cuz I need to submit this 10 days after the release of A Levels result.. That makes the dateline.. 14th March... I want to apply for this scholarship... Yet scared of the University course...

Damn F**K up..

Other than that... I also need to consider the courses to apply for my universities... Another headache.. I know my first choice will be Accounting... Maybe... I need to find other things that interest me... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? Why nothing seem to interest me???? I think I'm mad or something.... I need someone to bang my head against the wall...

This is stressful.

Anyway.. Let's talk about what I did today. I went back to PJ with Kolay today. We went to talk to Mr Siraj about university stuff.. Quite enriching.. But didn't seem to really enlighten me.. I don't know what's wrong with me really... We saw the alumni selling the Talent Night ticket. Seriously, I feel sorry for the alumni cuz they seem to be dumped to do those undone jobs that the Art Soc supposed to do. I'm sorry, but I feel that thats stink a lot. I really feel so sorry for my seniors. I somehow feel guilty for not helping out. I also feel sorry for the 5th Council cuz they will never know how it is like to organise a TALENT NIGHT. It's so fun and such a great experience... Just feel that the council should be supportive of the school event, regardless of whether or not it's a council event. It just disappoint me when Kee Onn, one of the councillors, just dismiss me away when I asked him to support the Talent Night. I just think the alumni need more support than that..

Hey... Who wants to go for the Talent Night?? It will be really fun. I bet.. I feel so sorry for not being able attend cuz I've to work.. But people out there!!! If you're free on this Friday night, do come for the PJC Talent Night 2005!!!! It will be held in our own school Auditorium!!! Ticket is selling at $4 each... Those interested, please just sms me, or tag me, or just approach any Pioneers.. They should be able to get tickets for you. Do come!! It will be fun!!

After loitering in PJ for a while, Kolay and I headed down to NTU to 'walk walk'. Honestly, we were ashamed to say that we got LOST in NTU. We didn't know where to go.. I sms-ed Yanto for help but his aid came too late. We already hopped into a bus unknowingly, and got ourselves OUT of NTU instead. How dumb can we get? haha...

We went to Jurong Point to CHILLLLLLL with a nice ice-blended coffee and some cookies.. Talked about universities stuff again, before doing some shopping. I saw this green top at Esprit which is absolutely pretty!!!! I look great in it too, but I didn't buy... haiz... Need to RESTRAIN.. Cuz I need to get myself a new pair of shoes... I actually bought this new pair of shoes from Converse... It cost me a bomb already.. So ya... Give up that top until I get my next pay.. haha...

*SiGh* I never knew deciding for a uni course is SO STRESSFUL... *SiGh*

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1:26 AM

Winamp buzzing: Eminem - Sing for the Moment

WEE~ Ended work early today. Hee hee...

Actually work was rather easy today.. We were filming in this bungalow, so it's rather nice... No scorching sun!!! haha... But it's rather warm cuz the house has glass windows all over.. So you see, greenhouse effect... This is one good example... DAMN warm and stuffy...

Oh, I think I swallowed a chewy gum today. I was happily chewing my gum when TERENCE CAO gave me this food that he made, and asked me to eat. I just happily pop it into my mouth, forgeting I had the gum in my mouth. So, I just bite bite bite... And by the time I remembered the gum, its sort of gone... So... I think it went down with the food.. LOL.

I think I'm sort of cursed. I always get Fei as my CA whenever I've outdoor filming. Damn it la!! It's always him, and he always disturb me. Stupid idiot. He rebonded his curly hair!! I was like O_O when I saw him today. haha.. He was damn damn damn irritating, kept doing funny actions at me. Idiotic! I think I'm cursed.

It was set that we would end at 2am today, but we actually finished at around 10.30pm!!!! WEE.. I was SOOO HAPPY. hahaha.. Means more sleeping time!!! Wee... Sleeping rocks!!! hahaha....

Oh!! I'm so happy today. I managed to get a half-day off on Sunday!!!! I can go for the NTU openhouse!!!! I'm sooooo happy!!!!! NTU NTU!!!! Here I come!!! hahahah! I'm so excited! I almost see myself going there cuz Yanto was like telling me about the Orientation and stuff!!! So exciting!!!! hahaha... So near my house... I really want to be enrolled into NTU! hahaa...

Okay.. That's all.. For now.. Bye!

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
10:50 AM

Winamp buzzing: Yellowcard - Only One

I changed my blog layout!!!!! I quite like it.. I got this from blogskins.com..

Today is going to one LONG day for me.. haiz.. Worked till so late.. Super sad about my job.. I guess it's not the first time...

I'm feeling very upset. Saturday is NUS openhouse, and Sunday is NTU openhouse. I really want to go for the NTU openhouse... Just sms the person to ask if I can apply leave for that day... Hopefully can... Praying that I can get leave... Really want to go.. Somehow Yanto had tempted me into it.. He was like talking about all the booths and all that. So exciting!! He also told me about the Student Union Orientation Camp!! He's one of the OGL for it!!! Then, he told me about the other OGLs, and the chief planner for the Orientation.. SO EXCITING!! I'm like super looking forward to it!!! haha..

Ah... I hope I get my leave... Please... I want to go.. I want to go... haiz... Screwed up job.. Want to get leave also so difficult.. Ma chiam going up to a teacher to ask for something or what so ever... It's so scary...

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Monday, March 07, 2005
10:06 PM

Winamp buzzing: Guang Liang - Tong Hua



This song is so sweet.. The MTV is so sad... I love this song!!!! Thanks to Millard who sent this song to me!!!! Love it love it love it!!!!

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4:15 PM

Winamp buzzing: S.H.E - Jin Zhong Zhao Tie Bu Shan

I tried changing my blogskin, but nothing seem to please me.

I was looking through all the University courses over again. I'm still thinking of what to apply... Feel quite lost... I really want to go to NTU cuz it's like super near my house... I think people will say that I'm crazy to give such a lame reason. haha.. I'm thinking of applying for the Teaching Scholarship... hmm.. I think I may not get it anyway.. Oh well... Then.. I'm thinking of School of Business in NTU... hmm... Not sure... Still thinking....

Been reading all those University booklets and stuff... Hope I'll decide on the courses soon... So stressful...

Haiz... Why do I feel so sian of my job despite me getting my results already.... Ahh... WHY? My mood don't seem to change lehz... haiz.... Someone educate me... I should be getting happier each day... That means my contract is ending soon.. Oh well...

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Sunday, March 06, 2005
12:47 PM

Winamp buzzing: Jay Z and Linkin Park - Encore/Numb

WEE.. I'm so happy!!!! My computer is alright now!! My brother changed my hard disk and I'm having a 40 GB harddisk.. wahahahhahahahahahahahahha. All my files are all here cuz my brother actually did a backup for me. HURRAY!!!!! Most importantly, those mp3s and photos are all inside!! weez!

Ok, now for my A Levels result. Well, I sort of predicted or should I say, I know that I'll get this grades, so it's not much of a surprise to me. My results are not too bad. I got A for Maths, B for Chemistry and C for Physics, and a C6 for General Paper... haiz... I have to say that Physics is such a disappointment to me. All along, my Physics is stronger than my Chemistry. I'd E for Chemistry for Prelims alright!!! And I jumped to a B for A Levels. During Prelims, I'd C for Physics. So, naturely, I expect myself to score higher than C for Physics... But I still get a C... Quite unhappy, but I also feel contented at the same time. General Paper.. haiz.. I'm quite sad cuz it's still a C6... I sort of worked hard for it but.. It just turn out this way.. I'm very ashame of myself cuz I'm someone with an A2 during O Levels.. haiz.. But still.. I feel contented with it too...

Currently, I'm thinking of the course to take in University.. It's so hard to decide... haiz...

After we had taken our result, Eunice, Kolay, Clara and I went for this crazy neoprint session!!! We only take.. 15mins to take the neoprints!! We were like rushing cuz when we decided to take the neoprints, the clock read 6.45pm, and we were meeting Sheng Qiang, Xiao Hui, and 2 of Xiao Hui's classmates for Hitch. haha.. It was damn crazy. The guys were like rushing us cuz we were holding on to the tix. Hitch is really nice!!! You all should go and watch it. It's funny and quite romantic. The guys should watch it. It will teach you how we girls think!!! haha...

Ok, now for other stuff. Yesterday, one of my cameraman in studio, Bobby, asked me out for movie today.. I was like quite shock. He did a rather 'stupid' way into getting my hp number. He knows that I've some Jay Chou pictures in my hp, and he was like asking me to send it to him. So, he gave me his number. Well, so I sent lor. That's how he got my number.. You see, we were talking about horror movies back then in studio, so he actually asked me if he can ask me out to watch horror movies next time. -_____- I joked back that if he meant 'White Noise'. He then said he hasn't watch it yet, and asked if I want to watch, and he just asked if I want to go out and watch it with him today. I was in shock when he asked me. Aiyoh... Those guys there.. Should ask other people there out for movie instead of me.. I just think some need this kind of 'date' more than me.. Cuz seriously, there are plenty of single APs and Ps there... They need someone to shower them with this kind of attention. Their ages are nearer to theirs, and perhaps more suitable for them.

Going to KTV with Kolay, Eunice, Clara... And I think some other people later!!! WeEz...!!!!

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Friday, March 04, 2005
9:49 AM

haiz...

My laptop is all screwed up by those spywares. DAMN YOU SPYWARES. DAMN YOU!!!!!!! My laptop is all cocked up and it is as good as dead. I hate those spywares!!!!!!

Anyway, I saw Mr Tan's nick as 'Well done, Chemistry students of 2004' and it's making me damn nervous.

I think I should go and reformat my com. It's soooooooooooo screwed up... Thank goodness I still have this desktop to use...

I'm so nervous. I can't think.

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005
11:29 PM

Winamp buzzing: Brian McFadden feat Delta Goodem - Almost Here

Did I hear you right
'Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you, you're almost here
(Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you)
And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted)
(Now I'm with you, I'm close to tears'Cause I know I'm almost here)
Only almost here
This song is absolutely gorgeous. It's so nice!!! haha... Listen out for this song on radio..
Well, heard the news? A Levels results will be out on Friday at 2.30pm. Gosh.. I'm like freaking out now. I dreamt of the results (finally) last night. Previously, when my friends were like worrying and having nightmares of it, I was still rather cool about it. Now when I know that I'll be getting my results on Friday, I'm like freaking out?
*Oh! My winamp just did a very cool thing. After it played Jay-Z & Linkin Park - Encore/Numb, it plays Linkin Park's version of Numb. So cool right! My winamp rocks.*
Anyway, back to topic. Results on Friday. I'm worried. Very worried. Super worried. Nothing can describe how it feels. The feeling is absolutely terrible. Those kind of uncertainty.. haiz...
Wish me a lot of luck..

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Tuesday, March 01, 2005
9:29 PM

Winamp buzzing: F.I.R - Fly Away

I'm DEAD TIRED. Waiting for Baofei to call me. We're going to crap for a while about our job. She's the girl of my age working in Mediacorp as PA too. Just like me.. It's nice to have a same-ager to actually talk to about my job.. We share the same views and stuff..

Work ended at around 12mid yesterday. I only get to sleep around 1.3oam after travelling home, shower... etc... And I'd to really DRAG myself out of bed this morning at 5am. Totally insane and unbearable.. I'd to buy myself a cup of coffee.. DEAD TIRED. Felt like a total zombie.

Studio 4 feels like a gargantuan fridge. It was like freezing cold..

Going to sleep soon... Ciao...

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