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~~Monday, January 31, 2005~~

9:09 PM

Winamp buzzing: Five For Fighting - 100 Years

Today is a rather nice day. heez.. Firstly, I started work later cuz Le Yao was on MC, so the set-off time was made an hour later. Today is a nice day cuz of the actors la.. Finished off Yaodong and Xiangping for one scene and that's it. In the afternoon, it was Wenlong, Alex (Part-time) and Andy (Part-time), and they are really nice people.. Like them alot. haha..

Oh ya.. I wonder is it that actors like to give people a lift to somewhere? haha.. Today, it's my third time being offered a lift by an actor. haha.. I met Alex at the reception area when I was going home, and he actually offered to give me a lift. haha.. He was heading Telok Blangah while I was heading Jurong West. He was quite serious about giving me a lift, even half-way. haha.. But couldn't find an ideal place to drop me off.. haha.. I turned down the offer in the end.. haha..

haha.. Alex is one cute guy. He's in NUS Engineering 4th year this year. Cool ehz.. haha.. That makes him around 25 years old this year, and he drives to school.. How cool is that... He's really cute la.. When the show is out, I'll ask you all to look out for him..

Working tomorrow again... I'm looking forward to my off-day on Wednesday..

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~~Sunday, January 30, 2005~~

10:35 PM

Winamp buzzing: Blue - Breathe Easy

I'm sun-burnt. *sObz*

Today started off rather badly cuz the mini bus that was supposed to bring us to our location broke down half way at PIE. It was extremely unlucky. There was smoke coming out from the front of the bus. It was so scary. I really thought at that point of time that the bus was going to explode. LOL.. We ended up taking a cab down to Changi country club to film.. GEEZ... We were ALL BURNT. It was so extremely sunny there. I love to tan, but I wore the wrong shirt today.. I wore a tee-shirt.. I should have worn a spag or something.. Now, there was this ugly 2 colour tone on my shoulder area.. Luckily I folded up my sleeves, if not my arms are going to be so extremely ugly. My face is red. haha.. I feel like a crab.

Today is Eunice's birthday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so sorry that I couldn't turn up for your celebration with the rest.. I'm sure you'd fun with the rest of them, though you really miss me right!!!!!!! Hahahaz.... Shall make it up to you someday when we meet up again! OkiEz?! =D heez...

I'm really waiting for Chinese New Year!!!!! haha...

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~~Saturday, January 29, 2005~~

10:37 PM

Winamp buzzing: Brian Mcfadden - Real to Me

I nearly bought Brian Mcfadden's CD today. I was so tempted into buying it.

Today is my off-day. WaHAHAHA... I'm so extremely happy about it.. But I've to go back to work tomorrow.. The only thing that keep me going in this job is probably the money and the contract.. and perhaps the looking-good-on-resume thingy... I have to jiayouz...

Well, I went to meet my sistas today finally after soooo long!! AHH!! Miss them so much!!! We haven't been out with each other for so long.. Well, the 3 of us went to eat at Edo Sushi first. We shared the sushi cuz we saw the advertisement on 5 plates for sushi for $6.50. haha.. We ate 10 plates and ordered some.. Nabe.. thingy.. forgot.. haha.. We headed to some M1 shops to settle Val's hp problem, and then headed down to Swensen to continue eating. haha.. We ordered Fried Mushrooms and Salted Mushrooms.. OMG.. Super nice.. Yumz.. Then we shared this regular Earthquake. OMG.. REALLY EARTHQUAKE... It's 8 scoops of ice-creams.. OMG.. It's SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.. I think I eat a lot of ice-cream... I feel fat... I really feel fat.. haha..

At the evening, I went to meet my parents at Clementi. They went to eat dinner, and I decided to skip it due to the amount of stuff I'd eaten. haha.. After that, we went to shop for some CNY food.. I'm buying them cuz I just had my pay.. haha.. Decided to buy some stuff for the family for CNY.. haha.. Spent over 50 bucks on CNY goodies.. haha.. This year is the only year my mom can "exploit" me. haha..

WeEz.. I just put up the Jay Calendar Poster in my room.. My very first Jay poster.. haha.. So nice... AhHhHh.. I'm sooooooooo in love with the poster!!!!!! It's so extremely nice!!!!!!

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12:51 AM

Winamp buzzing: Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

THE LONG WAIT IS FINALLY HERE!!!!! HAHA.. I'm having OFF-DAY today!!!! hahaha... FINALLY.. After working for 7 days straight.. So mind and physically draining..

My produer for today is actually Bi Zhu. I don't really like her.. I think she has a stinko face la.. Meaning, when she's sianz or a bit unhappy, her whole face turned black. Luckily she's not the producer I'm always with.. I realise how great it is to be with Ah Fu, the producer I'm with.. haha!

OOoOo... I must say this.. Just got to know this guy calls Gibbson. He's the one who always act as those bad guys in shows one.. He has this REALLY HUGE ear piercing... I was so fancinated by his ear-ring cuz it's huge. At first I thought it was part of the attire designed for him.. Then, I realised that he himself has such a huge piercing!!! He actually took out his ear-ring for me to see, and I literally see a hole on his ear!!! AHHHHHH... It was so super scary and amazing to me at the same time that I kept staring at his ear. I think I stared too much.. hahah!!

I'm tired.. I'm going to have a GOOOOOOD REST.. haha!

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~~Wednesday, January 26, 2005~~

9:42 PM

Winamp buzzing: Daniel Beddingfield - Never Gonna Leave Your Side

Today is one GREAT DAY!!! haha.. Super duper happy today!!!! "Mr Old Chang Kee (Andrew)" made my day once again!!! *ChEeRz* He gave me the calendar poster that you'll be given when you buy Jay's latest concert VCD!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I loveeeeee it totally!!!!!!!! It has the picture of Jay playing the piano.. SO SUPER NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, this was what happened. I worked morning shift once again.. So super tired. I was actually feeling quite bitter cuz I'd been working since Saturday and I'd a small bicker with my mom in the morning when she and dad were walking me to my bus-stop. Been quite a busy morning cuz there was a lot of things to draw out. wahaha.. I bumped into Andrew outside the make-up room, and he just handed me a roll-up poster. He just said, "Na! Give you." I was like, "Huh? What's that?" Then, he was like, "Later you open and see la!" wahaha.. Needless to say, it has to be JAY CHOU poster, and it is!!!!! I was quite surprised that he would give it to me cuz he's a Jay fan himself. He told me he has a lot of his posters. haha.. I also remembered telling him that I have no Jay Chou poster on my room wall. wahaha... Now he gave me one.. haha.. Going to put it up soon.. haha.. It's a calendar for 2005... So nice..

WeEez... So happy... So nice of him right... WeEzz~~~ Mr Old Chang Kee rocks!!!!!!!!!

It's always nice to meet Andrew in the morning. He always make my morning really cheery. haha.. Didn't manage to chat with him this morning cuz I was really busy. Hopefully there will be another time, and I can ask him to review the concert VCD.. And maybe I'll consider if I should get it or not.. haha!! Then again.. I'd the poster already.. No point getting the VCD.. hmm... haha..!!!

Filming was alright today even though I was a bit blur in the morning and was quite pek chek and sianz.. But I would just think of the poster, and I felt a lot better. haha!!!

I'm going to meet Li Shi Qi, the actress who acted as Aunt Shan in Zhen Qing tomorrow.. It will be good I think.. haha..!

Wee.. I'm so happy today!!!

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~~Tuesday, January 25, 2005~~

9:57 PM

Winamp buzzing: Diana Degarmo - Emotional (listening online)

Geez.. I don't want to be wronged!! My AP Erica asked me if I'd given Yaodong and Xiangping their rundown for 27/1. I know that I given all the rundowns my APs asked me to give.. Even if I forgot to give them at OB, I'll go and put in their pigeon hole.. ArGh... I hate it when such things happen!! They said they didn't receive it.. WHY???

I have to be honest. I hate it when filming have Yaodong and Xiangping. I don't like Yaodong at all. He's one big example of people who I call with only looks but no brains. We call a woman whose beautiful yet a dumbo as a bimbo. What do you call a guy who's good-looking yet no brains? Tell me! ArGh.. I think Yaodong is one example of a guy who always know how to act shuai only. I don't like filming whenever their's Xiangping cuz her personal PA, Xiao Hei will be around.. It just makes me feel useless there... and out of place...

I don't want to write for the day le.. I'm tired. Oh.. I didn't see Jeff today.. haha.. ^.^ And I realised I got my pay!!! wahaha.. I took a cab home from mediacorp even though it's only 8pm. LOL..

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~~Monday, January 24, 2005~~

11:25 PM

Winamp buzzing: Lighthouse Family - Free

I'm going to make this entry as short as possible, and I'm going to type it as fast as I can.

Well, I just came back from my class girls (with Yin Chong and Jian Hua) gathering at PS. haha.. I ended up being able to make it for the outing, all thanks to the cameraman for the day - Tong.

I don't know to thank him or curse at him. Tong was being SO MAD today. Kept rushing us here and there. Made us so panicky. He would scold us whenever there were stuff not done yet. I pity the crew people. They were like so totally annoyed by him, but they couldn't say anything. We'd lunch at 11am. Can you believe that.. The crew was so poor thing.. They didn't dare to eat cuz Tong wasn't eating!! Terence did something quite nasty to Tong la.. Which I shalln't say now.. Maybe when I'd off-day, then I describe it.. haha.. It was actually a small prank..haha.. SO, we actually finished all the scenes we wanted to do at 4pm. The rundown wrote that the ending time is 6.30pm.. SO, we were so super early.. I reached back mediacorp at 4.45pm ok.. Packed the stuff etc, and realised that I'd to kill 30mins before heading down to Douby Gaut to meet my class pals... OH GOSH.. I was like so totally shock at how early I was... I was the one who couldn't make it in the end, and end up I turned up, and I was the FIRST TO REACH... How weird...

We'd dinner at Cafe Cartel. YuMZZZZ... I totally love the dinner.. We chatted so much.. So glad to see them again.. We were planning a sentosa trip.. I hope I can make it in the end.. I still don't know I'll be working.. I don't think I'll be tanning much cuz I'll be so tanned after all my outdoor filming.. I already got darker than I was now.. So.. haha... If I continue tanning, I'll turn charcoal! LOL...

Need to sleep soon... Working "morning shift" again..

OH.. I forgot to say!!! There's this soundman in this one particular crew whose super cute. He's quite young.. I think.. He looks young, but he smokes... Well, everyone does smoke there, so no difference.. I'm quite used to it.. Hee.. He's quite cute.. His name is Jeff. haha.. Going to find ways to talk to him.. I didn't really dare to go and talk to him yet, except saying sorry to him when I stepped on the wire of his mic. haha.. He accidentally gave me a punch on my arm today.. DAMN PAINFUL... I was running passed him, and I don't know who he was trying to punching, but just so nice that he punched me.. haha.. Hope soundman for tomorrow will be him again.. hee.. =X

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~~Sunday, January 23, 2005~~

9:30 PM

Winamp buzzing: Simple Plan - One

Today is freaking hot. ArGh.. I'm no longer having an off-day tomorrow. I actually have to go back and work.. Cuz the AP forgot to give me the rundown for tomorrow and mis-led me into thinking that I'm having tomorrow off.. ArGh.. Worked "afternoon shift" yesterday. Erica, my AP for yesterday let me off early. I'm so happy.. I could get home earlier to rest. I don't know why I reached so early this morning.. ArGh.. I reached Mediacorp at 6.50am when I only need to reach at 7.30am.. zZz.. Filming was alright.. other than the weather. ArGh.. IT'S SO HOT.. We all got so roasted.. Oh.. The interesting part was that we went to Geylang. ahahaz.. And we saw those "actions" even in morning. haha.. Interesting siaz...

I'm so sad.. Initially, I planned a dinner trip with my class girls.. It was almost organised when suddenly, I receive this job notice... I'm totally upset about it!! I'll see how.. See if I can meet up with them a not... Not sure.. Cuz this coming week is going to be quite busy... Everyday started work at 7am or 7.30am.. And end at 6.30pm or 7pm... Finish packing and stuff.. I'll only be ready to go off at around 7.30pm.. I'd to rest early cuz I need to wake up at 5am.. So.. I'll see how... haiz... I'm soooo sad... Can't meet up with my class girls again...

Ok.. That's all... Till the next time..

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~~Friday, January 21, 2005~~

11:23 PM

Winamp buzzing: Green Day - boulevard of broken dreams

NOT WORKING TODAY!!!! WEEE~

I love off-days. I treasure them SOOOO much!! haha.. Need to return to work tomorrow again... SO SIAN... WORKING IS SIAN... Name me someone who loves working.. I'll have a lot to learn from that person...

Well.. Met up with friends today.. With those army guys.. LOL.. So nice to see them actually.. Miss them a lot actually.. They changed in terms of hair length. haha.. Some become darker, some become tougher, some no change. ahahahz! Still really glad to see them..

Went to Chinatown to shop with my parents. That place angers me. It's so super packed. How can anyone some in that kind of condition... I hate squeezing around with people.. ArGh... Hate it..

There's water stuck in my ear, and it's not coming out!!! ARGH...

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~~Thursday, January 20, 2005~~

10:06 PM

Winamp buzzing: Alicia Keys - Karma

Filming for today is stressful. Know why? Cuz the producer I'm attached to have something on, so the EP (jian zhi) took over the directing. Can you imagine.. The highest boss... My AP, Xiu Yun was very stress too.. So am I.. We were so scared to screw up.. haha.. The actors were more stress. Pierre was sooo worried. hahaz.. At the end of the day, I thought the EP for this show is very nice! He's very nice to us... Very reasonable.. Kept treating us drinks cuz he knows we are very tired. haha.. So nice.. Super nice guy.. Fatherly feeling..

I have a lot of mosquitoes bite on my legs!!! ArGh... So itchy!!!

Not working tomorrw!!!! Going out with my friends!!! WEEE~

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~~Wednesday, January 19, 2005~~

10:18 PM

Winamp buzzing: Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated

I didn't manage to update yesterday cuz I ended at 12mid last night, and I just slept like a log for only 4 hours and I'd to drag myself out of bed for work.. Anyway, filming for yesterday was at the Devils' Bar. My AP Erica and I were so damn stressed cuz Wardrobe handed us the wrong attire for Terence. Actually I sort of blame Terence for it. He's supposed to go and check his clothes before any filming. Instead, he just asked us to bring down for him. So, naturally, we'll bring whatever the wardrobe had prepared for him. It was then he found that the clothes was wrong... zzz... Stupid.

Filming was alright.. We went to Cineleisure Food Court for dinner cuz after that we were going to film near there. We were sitting in front of the escalators. I was like looking around, wondering if I'll see anyone I know. You see, it's the town area, there's tendency to see people I know. Then, I saw someone coming down the ecalator.. He looks like someone I know.. He looks like Andrew Seow. I was quite shock at that time cuz I was wondering why he wasn't doing his own filming. I just continued to look/stare at the person. That person also continued to look/stare. It was until when he was nearer when I confirmed that he's Andrew. He signalled to me to not let the others know, but it was too late. The rest noticed him too. hahaz.. So qiao right..

Filming for today was not bad too. I think I really tend to get along with the celebs better. Remember the actress who acts as Yixuan in The Champion (Ren Wo Ao You)? Her name is Jessica. She's in my current drama, and she's in the scenes for today. She's really nice and all. I got along with her really well. ahahaz.. She gave me a big sister feeling. So nice.. hahaz.. She has really nice long hair too!!! haha.. Another actor is call Lawrence. He's from Fly Entertainment, and he's actually quite cute. hahahaz.. He's really nice too. hahahaz...

Working morning for tomorrow again... Ahh.. Need to sleep soon... OFF-DAY ON FRIDAY!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHZ...

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~~Monday, January 17, 2005~~

10:51 PM

Winamp buzzing: Jay Chou - Qi Li Xiang

*SiGh* I miss school so much to the extent that I even miss the time when my class girls and I stayed back in the classroom or canteen to study for A Levels. Maybe I don't really miss the stress and TYS.. It's just the staying back together feeling, queing for the milo thing... haha.. I miss my class girls!!! IQ ZERO and SICKO people... The last time we actually met each other was actually Grad Nite... Can you believe that... That was SO LONG ago... When are we going to meet up with each other again?!?!?!?!?!?!?! *sObz*

I also miss my guy friends... I miss watching them play soccer... I miss playing basketball with them... *SiGh* Now can only meet up with them when they book out from their camp on either public holidays or weekends next time... And my job doesn't permit me to always have my off-days on those days.. It is so random.. So I guess my chance of meeting up with them is like sooooo slim... I'm sad....

I miss sitting at the grandstand watching other people play sports... I miss sitting at the canteen talking trash with people... I miss sitting at the concourse... I miss taking 172 to school...

I miss school...

I hate working. Even though I always sound so excited when I talk about my job.. I do have things that make me sianz about it.. I'm just trying to motivate myself to continue doing the job, telling myself that there are good things about my job... For my job, I'm really scared that I will make mistakes... I don't want to get scolding from anyone... I don't want to cause trouble for anyone there... I don't want to give anyone any chance to talk ill about me. I want to prove those big mouths that a newcomer can be better than them so that they will not speak ill about other people ever again. I want to be better than my AP. I think that my AP don't trust me with the job. I want to prove her wrong. SO WRONG. I want to show that I am good. My job allows no room for mistakes.. Cuz one mistake may cause a loss of a lot of money.. So.. I'm scared actually...

The motivations for me to go to work are probably the thought that it will look beautiful on my future resume... And probably some people whom I get along well in Mediacorp... And of course my CONTRACT... I kept telling myself that it's a rare job.. And I should learn to keep it going... Jobs are hard to come by.. And all jobs are like that... Bound to have people you dislike... And of course you have to do your best for jobs right... *SiGh* Meeting good people that you can get along at work is important... I'm so sian..

*SiGh* Life is so lifeless now..

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~~Sunday, January 16, 2005~~

9:53 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ryan Cabrera - True

Today is one happy day. I only had to work half day today!!! WeEz.. So happy.. haha.. Moreoever, I managed to meet "Mr Old Chang Kee" a.k.a "Curry Puff" a.k.a Andrew Seow in the morning again today. haha.. I was waiting for 8am to come so that my team and I could set off. haha.. Andrew's set off time was 8.30am, and he was an hour earlier, so he just set down and talked trash with me. haha.. He was MAD this morning.. Over-hyperactive. Kept talking and talking and talking. Asked for the scripts for my drama when he hadn't gone through his own scripts and lines for his own drama!! LOL.. Then, I was like, "Eh Andrew, you a bit weird today." And he was like, "I'm hyperactive right!" -_-.. He also know... Then he said that he needs to keep himself entertained cuz he had to work till mid-night today. haha.. Mad cow la.. But it was quite nice to start the morning talking and laughing la.. Imagine.. You'd to crawl out of your bed at 5am to go to work.. Ahh... I'm so thankful the laughter in the morning.. Brighten my morning.. haha..

Filming for today was alright. There's this part-timer, Alex. He's actually quite cute. haha.. Shuai shuai one.. haha... And he kept talking to me. hahahahahahhaz...~ ^.^ He really kept me entertained for the whole day. hahahaz.. He'll be back again, just don't know when..

Ahh... Trying to activate mms on my new phone.. Quite hard.. Don't know why... hmmm...

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~~Saturday, January 15, 2005~~

10:29 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ayumi Hamasaki - Dearest

Honestly, I'm quite happy now. One reason is cuz I ended work early today!!! haha.. So happy.. Reached home at 8pm okay.. LOL.. Another reason is that I met Rick and Timothy this morning!! haha.. That REALLY made my morning. I bumped into them when they were about to go into make-up room. haha.. I met Rick inside the wardrobe again and I told him that I won't be in their team anymore. The first thing he did is that he frowned. Then he was like, "WHY?!?!?!?!?!" Then, I told him that I got switched to the 100 episodes drama.. Then his expression changed and he said, "Eh! I'll be in that show too! haha.." So funny.. Then he left the wardrobe and he was like, "I'll miss you!!" and then he gave those stupid seductive look that he always gave me. LOL.. Funny guy..!! So glad to know him.. and so glad that I'll be working with him again for this current show that I'm doing!!! hee... Then, outside the make-up room, there was this waiting area. I met Timothy there, and I was quite free then, so I chatted with him for a while. Pierre came along and asked Tim about his character in the show. Then, I told Pierre that Tim is a horse. LOL.. Pierre was like "Huh?". So, I actually said, "You know Chinese have this Niu Tou Ma Wei... He's the Ma.." Pierre was still having the huh-look. Then someone, I think is Ah Bao, said, "It's niu tou ma mian la!!!" It was then we all realised my mistake. So did Timothy. He was standing next to me, and he was so ready to pour the can of milo that he was drinking over my head!!! hahaha... Know what's the joke already? I said that Timothy is "Ma Wei", which meant horse tail. LOL.. In actual fact, he's actually "Ma Mian", which meant horse face. LOL.. So funny.. I kept laughing and laughing at my stupid mistake!! LOL...

It just feels SOOOOO NICE to talk to the whole bunch of people from the previous drama that I was doing. So heart-warming. hee...

Work for today was alright. STUPID TERENCE CAO!!! ArGh.. He's such a zhu tou! We were supposed to set off at 8am, and he reached at 8am!!! Stupid!!! Made us rushed like crazy in the end due to him.. He was actually quite nice in real-life.. Don't know.. Didn't really talk to him much.. We'll see.. I still don't like Yao Dong!!! ArGh... Him and his stupid attitude. Felicia was so funny. We were on the bus heading Bishan Park. She was sitting in front of me. She suddenly turned back, and saw my sleepy look. So, she said, "Eh, I show you something." I was like, "Huh?" She took this spray can, and said, "Close your eyes." So, I closed my eyes.. Then, she just used that spray thingy and spray at me!!!! I was like "HUH?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!" LOL.. So funny lor.. I asked her what was that, and she told me it's "Refreshioner".. So that I won't be that sleepy. LOL... We then kept laughing cuz she was amused by my reaction when she sprayed the refreshioner at me.. haha..

I think some of my office people are just too scary. I don't want to mix around with them... It is a total culture shock to me.. I'm just so... stunned at the people there... No so my type of people.. I think I've to learn to protect myself more.. It's not good to be nice. In this working world, it doesn't really pay to be nice. It only makes you get bullied easily... I should be more firm in certain things.. Especially when I'm out in the working world.. I don't have my friends to protect me...

I think that's why I get along with the celebs.. It's not all celebs that I get along well.. Just some... Selective.. It's those people who feels neutral, and do not gossip and speaks ill of other people.. It's more healthy for my mind...

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~~Friday, January 14, 2005~~

10:17 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ou De Yang - Xiu Xiu Xiu

When a lot of people work together in an organisation, there'll bound to be politics. I hate all those.. People are just so gossipy. Yes, there's politics among all the APs regarding the PAs.. Ok.. APs stand for Assistant Producers, and PA stands for Production Assistants. Me, as a new-comer, just listen as they spoke ill of other people. I mean.. It's right of them to get piss off with their PA when they did the wrong stuff, but not to the extend of speaking ill and gossiping about them right.. I just feel so much injustice.. All APs started off as PAs, and there you are, speaking ill of others. Have you ever think that actually last time when you were a PA, your AP also spoke ill of you like that? I just wish to keep my ass away from those people in my office actually.. Maybe except Ah Bao, cuz I get along with her well... Just feel sad that I'm not working with her anymore... I just think the huge clique of APs and PAs are soo.. poisonous.. I didn't wish to get near them anytime.. now or ever! I just want to do my job right, wait for the time to knock off, go home, eat and sleep. Somehow, I feel it's better to befriend with the artist rather than with the APs and PAs in office.. At least there's no such politics.

Sometimes, some people think that being so frank and straight-forward is your advantage. But, do you know that when you tell people that you are frank and straight-forward, you're also telling people that you are stupid and brainless cuz you speak without even thinking of what you are speaking.. I hate people who think so greatly of themselves.

I hate gossipy people. Beware.. Maybe you will recarnate into a chicken in your next life.

I'm just glad that I don't know those people. And I don't want to know them.

Anyway, for work today, it was alright I guess... Got to know Xiang Ping and Yao Dong today.. Xiang Ping has this personal PA, so my job was lighten SO MUCH... And, I really don't like Yao Dong. He really left such a bad first impression in me. HE'S SO DAO.. ArGh... Make me frown at him straight in the face.. Then later, it was better.. He wasn't THAT DAO, but still don't really like him. Yes, he's very handsome in real-life.. But so what? Stupid good-looking guy.

I'm so tired.. I want to sleep now.. But I just ate dinner... I'm turning into a pig..

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~~Thursday, January 13, 2005~~

10:52 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ou De Yang - Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu

Ahh.. I'm so tired.. I'm having a headache.. I hope I'm not falling sick.. *SiGh* Must be kana the virus from the "Ying Cha Yang Yuo" team.. First was Andrew who fell ill.. Then Edmund.. Then Rick.. Then Jia Fu and Ah Bao... The virus was in the air!!!!

Today was my first day in the new show.. This team is quite boring.. I was quite miserable.. I was missing my previous crew so much.. I miss Jia Fu's stupid horney jokes, I miss crapping with Andrew and Rick.. *SiGh* I hope tomorrow will be better.. Working with Erica.. She's quite funny.. Hope it's nice.. I hope the dao yan is funny too.. Yup..

For today, I got to know Felicia, Pierre and Magdalene.. They were alright... Pierre has some problem with Chinese pronouncation. That really reminds me of Timothy. haha.. Talking about Timothy!!! I miss him too!!! haha.. I heard from Bao Fei that he's in the Cleo magazine.. haha.. I want to see!!!! haha... Felicia is actually quite nice. She laughs really loudly. haha.. Got along quite well with her.. Maybe it's that we are around the same age.. She's just.. 3 years older than me lor.. Magdalene was alright.. Oh.. If you all didn't know who Mag is.. She's the part-time DJ for Perfect 10.. Yup..

I'm tired... and I miss my friends... Today, on the way back from outdoor filming, our bus by-pass the Police Acadamy. It was then that I realised that it's so near Mediacorp. It's just down the hill.. hahaz.. Didn't know that KY and XH are actually so near me. haha... That just make me miss my friends...

Ok.. I have to catch some sleep...

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~~Wednesday, January 12, 2005~~

9:04 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ryan Cabrera - True

Ahh... Need to return to work tomorrow... I feel lazy!!! Tomorrow is morning filming somemore.. So that means I'd to wake up early... Haven't been doing morning filming for quite sometimes.. I hope I can wake up..

Well, I went shopping with Mom at Chinatown. LOL.. Everywhere has so much Chinese New Year Spirit. wEez.. I love Chinese New Year!!! $_$ Bought this top from Surfer Paradise. haha.. Now shopping for clothes that I can wear to work too.. So it won't be a waste. Bought SO MANY clothes recently.. I should restrain myself from buying more stuff... I'm seriously waiting for pay-day... which is SO FAR AWAY...

Need to go back reading those scripts for those scenes that we'll be filming tomorrow.. That's such a drag... Tomorrow will be my first day starting on the new drama.. Wish me luck!! I'll be seeing Pierre Png, Felicia Chin and Magdalene See tomorrow.. haha.. Hope they are nice people...

Oh well... Update tomorrow!

I miss all the guys at NS.. It feels so weird now.. MSN list is so empty.

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~~Tuesday, January 11, 2005~~

9:30 PM

Winamp buzzing: Kelly Clarkson - Break Away

It feels as if I'm studying... I spent my whole afternoon trying to finish reading those scripts that I'd set myself to read, but to no avail. I didn't even finish one episode. Making notes on each scene is really taking up my time.. GeEz...

Went for dinner with mom at Clementi, and we went to shop for stuff.. haha.. Bought some really cute Chinese New Year decorations, a new top, and a new pair of jeans!!! WEEEzz.... New clothes to wear to work. ahahahz...

I love my off days. I managed to watch a bit of MTV channel, and I saw some MTVs that I really want to see!!! I saw the MTV for Ryan Cabrera's True!!!! OMG.. I also saw the MTV for Yellowcard's Only One. AHHHHH~ I'm so lucky. haha...

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12:20 AM

Diana DeGarmo - Emotional

Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside

Sometimes I'm sad, about everything
Sometimes I'm mad, and break some things
Sorry times ten, but you just got in the way

Don't give up no, running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel,
Emotional

You say I'm just, impossible
Totally, unpredictable
I'm just a girl, get used to it
No big deal

You can't change me
Why would you try
I'm no angel, but I can make you smile

And that's the way it is
And that's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I’m just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel.
Emotional

Don't give up now, running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel

Sometimes I get,
Emotional

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~~Monday, January 10, 2005~~

10:52 PM

Winamp buzzing: Lin Jun Jie - Dou Jiang You Tiao

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ Today ended work well and early!!! haha... Work for today was really easy. All the attire and stuff were so standard. Nothing much.. We went for OB just to shoot one scene... That stupid Jia Fu... Kept singing some horny songs... Make me -_______- .... Ah Bao was saying that luckily it's my last day with them. They are a cool bunch la.. Jia Fu then kept immitating some other dao yan.. Stupid la... Make it until so funny... We were still filming there at the location lor.. Then suddenly he just immitate them.. Make us laughed like a crazy bunch. We finished at 9pm, which was DAMN EARLY.. hahahahhaaz... So happy.. Reached back to Mediacorp at 9.30pm.. Then I got a free ride home from one of the part-time actor!!!!! wahahahaha... So nice of him to send me home.. hahaahhahaz... No need to rot my time away on 157 for an hour.. ahahaz...

Not working tomorrow and Wednesday!!!! haha... It's time for me to go through the scripts for the new drama that I'll be doing... *SiGh* That feels like a drag.... I feel lazy!!!!!!! ArGh... I have so many episodes to read........

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11:51 AM

Winamp buzzing: Ryan Cabrera - True

Diao... Today is really a very "diao" day. Know why? I was on my way to Mediacorp this morning when Ah Bao called me to tell me that LIN XIAO PEI is on MC today.. So can't do those day filming today... Win liao.. I was like "HUH?!?!" So I alighted, crossed the road, and took 157 back again at Bukit Timah... And then, when I was on the way home, she called me again to say that Jia Fu decided to do scenes without her... And I can't rush down anymore cuz I'll be late, so Ah Bao just said it was alright.. I'll only go this evening for the night filming...

haiz... Sometimes.. Those celebs are just so annoying... I mean... You MC also don't SO LATE then inform people right... Feel so ARGH at her... I spent an hour on the bus.. and wasted so much bus fare... ADULT FARE now ok... ZzzzzZzzzzzZZz....

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12:36 AM

Winamp buzzing: Ryan Cabrera - True

*Sigh* I just received a call from Ah Bao telling me to standby tomorrow cuz Jeannie maybe on MC, and need me to stand-in.. Sian... My off-day gone... Luckily I didn't plan anything for tomorrow.. If not it will be all blown away..

Anyway, today was an "okay" day... Feels.. Ok.. Just that something bothers me alot la.. *Sigh* Made me quite grumpy for a while.. After that, during dinner, Andrew actually managed to brighten it up by showing me Jay Chou box!! haha.. Ya.. He bought "Qi Li Xiang" only now!!! Idiotic la him... And he got this CD casing.. And he kept showing it off to me... It was then that I know that he's a Jay fan too!!! hahaha.. Stupid la.. Then he kept telling me that he wants to change his name from Andrew to Jay.. Stupid la.. Another one who wants to act as Jay.. And you know what he told me!!! He told me that Jay smokes too!!!! *sobz* Then I asked him how he knows.. Then he told me he has friends in the backstage, so they told him... haiz... JAY!!!!!!!

Haiz.. Not going to update much.. Need to sleep cuz tomorrow working.... *SIGH*

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~~Sunday, January 09, 2005~~

10:09 AM

Winamp buzzing: Ryan Cabrera - True

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.... This song is DAMN NICE. DAMN NICE. DAMN NICE...

I'm in love with this song...

It's just hard to follow your intuition.. Cuz I don't know whether is it right or wrong.. But I hate living in riddles..

*Sigh*

Anyway, this is totally the bestest song to me at the moment. Go check it out if you all want... ^.^

Ryan Cabrera - True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
I'ts time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

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~~Saturday, January 08, 2005~~

11:49 PM

Winamp buzzing: Brandy - Have You Ever

I think I'm not working on Monday to Wednesday next week. Cool ehz? haha.. I think so only.. Cuz I didn't receive any rundowns for any filming.

Outdoor filming for today was actually quite alright. Today is filming with Shayne and Li Ting.. haiz.. Quite sian when it's with them.. But I'd Andrew, Rick and Timothy to keep me company. haha.. Today is Timothy's last day in this film. All his parts were done! He must be soooo happy. I tried to secretly take his photo using my hp, but I don't dare.. haha.. I shy..... hahahhahaha... =p Rick was sooo funny. He was like saying that he disagree with Andrew when Andrew gave me a nickname "sotong". haha.. He said he will help me "ta bao bu ping". Damn funny lor him.. haha.. Help me with my "injustice". LOL...

Ended work really early today. Reached back at office at around 9pm only. Lisa taught me how to claim my taxi fares. OMG.. My taxi fares amounted up to $90+... Gosh...

Gonna bid goodbye to this crew of people.. Cuz I'll be switching to another show next week.. Gonna miss them all actually.. The funky crew when with Jia Fu and Ah Bao... Miss crapping with Andrew, Rick and Timothy... etc.. haha..

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~~Friday, January 07, 2005~~

10:04 PM

Winamp buzzing: Shania Twain - From This Moment

Not working today again!!!!! haha...

I just stayed at home and chill today. It was really nice to just rot at home again. I rotted in front of the computer in the morning, watched Discovery Channel in the afternoon for a while, and went back to crap with Kolay online while she slacked at work. hahahahaha... Then watched TV again at night and eat dinner. hahaha... COOOL~

More and more of my guy friends are booking into the army.. I didn't feel that I will miss them, but now, I feel that I will... I will miss them alot.. Jasper booked in to Tekong on 6th Jan.. Weide and Edward booked in today.. Sidney, Yusheng, Jia Jun, Yong Cheng and Ying Yi will be booking in tomorrow.. Geez... All a sudden, I miss them so. *SiGh* KTV is not going to be so fun without Weide's stupid dustbin song, and without Jasper always fighting to choose Jay Chou songs with me... It just feel so.. weird... Just wonder when I will meet up with them again. Following-up those who are booking in tomorrow are Kuan Yong and Xiao Hui.. They will be booking in on 11th Jan.. *SiGh* By then, I will miss the one who always supply me songs to download (KY), and also a great pool partner and lamer (XH)..

Geez... I'm missing the whole lot of them!!!

Oh.. I also realised that I haven't make any New Year Wishes. I'd been so busy then.. Okay.. Now isn't too late right.. Okay.. Here it goes...

1. I hope I will do well for the A Levels, get into my dream course.. It will be my biggest biggest dream for the moment.

2. I hope I can have enough time to meet up with all my friends despite my working hours.. ALL MY FRIENDS... 4D1 people... My sistas... 03S13 people... Council people.... Have time for me to go pool and ktv with them... watch movies....

3. I hope my dad will be better... He'd been a disappointment to the whole family. I just hope he becomes better, and not be such a disappointment this year.

4. I pray for good health for my mom and dad.. My mom has the giddy spells occasionally.. I pray that she will get well soon.. I pray for good health for my dad too... And of course good health for myself and brother..

5. I hope I will meet nice people at work, and I do not case any trouble at work. Please let me not be blur at work. My job allows no room for mistakes.

6. I hope Mother Earth will be nice to us and not have so many natural disaster... The Tsunami incident is totally trumatising... I hope none of that will happen again... It just reminds me of the movie "The Day After Tomorrow".. It's just like Mother Earth taking revenage at us after years of torture by the human beings...

7. I wish the guy I like all the best in NS.. Hope he remembers me.

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That's all.. I realised that most of them.. I can't do much to attain them.. That's why I call it a wish... I wish upon a star..... hahhaa!

Now for New Year Resolutions.... Hmm... Not too sure.. I'll try to come up with some...

1. Learn swimming? haha.. I'll TRY... But doubt will success...

2. Continue with the habit of reading despite being busy at work..

3. Do not cause any trouble at work.. Do my best at work..

4. Be brave and more independent.

5. Try not to miss him..? hahahahhahahaha... Perhaps!!!!

ok... This is the best I can get to... I can't think of any right now... Resolutions.. I don't know what I want to accomplish actually.. haha... When I think of it, I'll let you know...

haha.. Ok.. That's all I guess...

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1:03 AM

Winamp buzzing: Five for Fighting - Superman

Work was fine today. It's always fun when it's filming with Jia Fu and Ah Bao. We went to Good Gardens Hotel to film... I didn't know where that is.. I was quite lost when I got there and I was like asking Xiao Ling where we were and she slowly told me the roads around. LOL..

When it's dinner time, it only left Ge Ping, Xiao Ling and Limei. We all went to Newton Food Centre to eat. Man... The food there is DAMN UNHEALTHY.. All seafood la.. Fried stuff... haha.. But they are NICE... Yumz... Delicious.. It's quite... weird to sit with the celebs to eat dinner at such public place.. haha.. Xiao Ling, Limei and Ah Bao damn "on".. They ordered clams to eat, and ordered 2 bottles of beer to drink too.. They offered Jia Fu (the dao yan) a drink too. Then Jia Fu was like, "MA DE! Who ask you all to drink when working?!?!?!" Then he continued, "But since you all offered 'jiu hua ca" for me, I'll drink la..." Then we all -__________-

After dinner, we went back to the hotel to continue filming. Seriously, after drinking, they really went MAD... Jia Fu kept talking dirty!!!!! Eek!!! Pollute my mind... But seriously, since I came to work, I realised that guys REALLY DAMN DIRTY!!! OMG... Cannot tahan them.. haha.. Keep saying those sex jokes... But really funny la.. haha.. I'd my fair share of laughing.. They can link anything and everything to sex ok... Horny creatures..... -.-

Not working tomorrow again!!! haha...

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~~Wednesday, January 05, 2005~~

11:05 PM

Winamp buzzing: Britney Spears - Sometimes

Yesterday had been great!!! We got the bag finally!!!! I told Ah Bao about the bag I saw at the auction, and she bought it!! The seller was really kind to be able to give us the bag straight away!! I'm so glad. At least it shuts some people up for the moment. You know, after this incident, I really realise how cold the working life is. I just feel as if I'm stabbed in the back so hard. I'm just glad that at the end of the day, I still have my friends around me to make me feel better. It's hard when everyone is saving their own ass. People will just push you into the fire and let you just die there especially when you are the newest and the youngest. Okay.. This is what happened. The PA I was with last time, Jeannie is such a back-stabber. When the bag was lost and higher authorities questioned her, she told them that the clothes and everything that were needed on that day were taken out by me, so it wasn't her fault at all. Yes, Mun Kok gave me the necessary clothes for the shoot that day, but how can she just push the blame to me? Luckily she's the one who recorded the attire for the day and she wrote the bag down. So, it wasn't entirely my fault. I just can't believe it when Mun Kok told me. I just feel so... ARGH... Fancy saying "I'll bare all the responsibility." in front of me, and yet told others that it wasn't her fault at all. Luckily Mun Kok and Ah Bao knew the entire situation. ArGh.. I feel so... ARGHHHH.... And, luckily I'm able to find the bag online. At least I did my part to undo the mistake. ArGh... I'm not a good person to play this kind of tricks on. Please do not take the advantage that I'm new and young, and just push all the blames on me. I may be new, but I'm not stupid. I know how to save my ass too, and I saved mine and yours this time. I've seen and experience more than what you think I've.

ARGHHH..... Terrible people.

Okay... For now, let me talk about happier stuff!!!! I'm not working today so I met up with Eunice, Sheng Qiang and Xiao Hui to go back to PJC to look at the Orientation and also talk to some teachers. It was really nice to be back there again!!! Met some other people too. Looked at their mass dance and games... Then, just went to the canteen to talk to people... Talked to Mr Kwek... Mr Chia.. Mr Wong... Mr Siraj.. Mr Dennis Yeo... A lot... Even those who didn't teach me also talk to me.. hahahhaz... Then crapped with Shuei Yi together with Sheng Qiang and Xiao Hui.

Eunice, Sheng Qiang, Xiao Hui and I left before others. We walked to Lot 1 to save on the 63 cents. hahahahaz... Adult fare... We were really funny. We said we'll decide what to do while we walk to Lot 1, but on our way there, we talked about everything except what we were going to do. When we reached Lot 1, we just walked around and finally decided that we'd play pool. Xiao Hui asked his good friend, Win Bin along. Stupid Xiao Hui and Sheng Qiang... Anyhow teach their friend... End up the 3 Riverside-dian kept disturbing me... Stupid!!!!!! Anyway, it was a nice pool session la... The 3 guys just kept laming and laming... CMI man.. haha...

Working tomorrow again... Should be alright... Couldn't stop thinking of the bag incident.. And the people around me...

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~~Tuesday, January 04, 2005~~

9:13 AM

Winamp buzzing: Craig David - You Don't Miss Your Water

I feel thankful, at least for now. There's this tiny hope left for us. Yesterday, I went to Yahoo! Auction (SG) to look for the bag, praying that someone will somehow or rather want to sell this bag at this point of time. Then, voila! I found this seller selling this bag. I was soooooo excited. I sms-ed Jeannie and Ah Bao to tell them about it. Firstly, I wanted them to look at it to re-confirm with me that the bag is the right one. Secondly, I can't buy cuz I don't have credit card. I was quite upset when Jeannie straight away reply to me that it was no use. I was quite upset by her reply cuz she didn't want to try at all. She said she went around looking for the bag. I know going around looking for it is no use at all cuz the bag is no longer on sale. It was dated back 2 seasons ago. Then, I received a positive reply from Ah Bao this morning. She wanted to go up to the site and take a look. She re-confirmed that it's the correct bag and she said she's going to buy it. Yup... Now the bag is sold to her now.. Just waiting for the seller to reply, and hopefully the seller can give us by today cuz we needed it desprately.

Please please please.......

You know, I suddenly feel that the whole lot of "top" people who are now blaming us for this and that are totally useless. They only sat around and talked big. I mean, we were all so stressed up before every shooting. And, we're only humans. It's naturally that we will make mistakes. No, I'm not trying to say that we're not in the wrong. Yes, we had been careless and it's right for you to scold us for it. But, you don't need to keep asking and asking and asking about what had happened right? It's not something that we wanted at all. You just kept asking Mun Kok (wardrobe guy) over and over again. I felt totally guilty about it. Instead of thinking of ways to solve the problem, you all just kept digging into WHY the bag is gone. Does digging out the reason solve the problem? Instead of helping to find a replica, you all drilled into the procedure of doing things. What is more important? Finding a replica or drilling procedure? Sometimes, I really wonder does the "top people" knows piority.

I'm glad I found one on sale at Yahoo! Auction. I hope all the buying and stuff will be successful, so that we can shut them all up. It's so annoying. It's a team-work. It's not a blaming session.

ArGh... When I was in council, those "top people" also all talk no show. Now at work also like that. It just makes me wonder if all the "top people" are like that. Irritating.

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1:27 AM

Winamp buzzing: Nicole Kidman and Ewan Mcgregor - Come What May

*SiGh* This song really explains how I feel now... Come What May....

To Keck Soon: I just wish that if paying for the bag will solve the problem.. We needed the bag for continunity of the drama... You see.. We seprated the entire episode into many scenes and seprated into different days to shoot.. So we needed the bag to continue the shooting.. Get what I mean... It's quite a big matter now.. Cuz it may mean re-shooting unless we could get a replacement... haiz...

Work is stressful today.. haiz.. I don't know how to say.. It's just BAD WEEK last week.. Lots of things that we didn't want to happen happened.. I mean.. It's not that we are not responsible.. Just happened... I'm not trying to say that it's not our fault.. Just that.. We didn't mean to.. haiz.. Hope somehow it will be solved.. Like.. They will be able to find a replica of the bag..

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~~Sunday, January 02, 2005~~

8:19 PM

Winamp buzzing: Madonna - Frozen

I feel so stressed. A bag that's needed for continunity for the show is lost. Ah Bao, Jeannie and I were trying to recall if we took it out for one of our outdoor filming.. Honestly I'd no impression of it at all... Damn it la.. Feeling so stressed right now... ARRGHHHH... Please... Please let the bag be found..... Please.....

ArGh... I'm so stressed... I hope I'm there to help them.......

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~~Saturday, January 01, 2005~~

10:35 PM

Winamp buzzing: Spice Girls - Too Much

I'm happy today cuz I didn't have to work and glad that most of those friends whom I invited turned up at my house-warming. THANK YOU PEOPLE!!! Love ya all... Gonna miss you all!!!!

Hee... I'm just happy today la...

Oh, by the way, click on the following website... You all will know who is Timothy. I realised that they mis-spelled his name on our cast list at work.

http://www.fly.com.sg/maleartist/timothynga/main.htm

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