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~~Saturday, July 31, 2004~~

7:52 PM

Winamp buzzing: Jay Chou - Qi Li Xiang

Wow.. Today is way cool. Kolay and I decided to de-stress ourselves a little, so guess what we did? We went to sing K Box!! It was REALLY COOL cuz it's only the 2 of us singing, and we managed to sing A LOT OF SONGS that we like. It was like our own mini concert. SO COOL. We managed to sing till... around 3.45pm!! WAHAHAZ! From 11.30am till 3.45pm okay!! WAYYYY COOLLLL... around 4 hours of singing!!! hahaz!!! And, the K Box attendent assigned to our room has really nice hair, and he's quite cute!! haha! I'm mad. I even know his name! haha! Cool ah! Okok.. I'm mad.. Well, I sang LOTS of S.H.E songs.. When I was singing "Always on My Mind", I thought of my sistas!!!! SiStAz!!! I MISS YOU GURLZ!!!!!!! This song rocks.. Sang quite a number of Jay Chou's song!!! I can sing "Gui Ji" REAL WELL. In fact, I think I sounded damn good. haha! I'm so bhb. Jay Chou rocks my world man.. He's so HANDSOME, TALENTED... I love his attitude!! haha.. Okok.. I'm crazy again.
Met WD, KY, Jasper and SY at JEC too!! haha.. Singapore is such a small world. Kolay and I went down to KFC to do some studying.. haha.. Not bad.. Studied a bit.. hMm.. It's nice to de-stress for a while.. Maybe I should consider going to K Box once in a while with people to de-stress a bit.. hahaz..

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~~Friday, July 30, 2004~~

10:53 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ou De Yang - Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu
Mind Lingering: X MEN 2!!! Jay Chou CD!!!!

FRIDAY!! Basically, I think today rocks. It was so filled with laughter. I laughed a lot!! HmMm.. Come to think of it.. I laugh a lot everyday.. No difference.. haha!
My whole class played soccer for PE today!! Mr Loke was really kind to let us play our own games instead of doing field events!! Soccer is REALLY FUN today!! Initially, I was just running around after the ball. Then, Sigmund was really doing a rather bad goal-keeper, so I went to be a goal-keeper!! heehee!! Hey!! I did a rather good job okay! I saved quited a lot of attacks!! heehee!!! The only thing I don't know how to do is to do a proper goal-kick!! weEez!!! Soccer very fun!!! I want to play it again!
Lessons ended at 4.30pm!! WeEz.. No extra Chemistry lesson today!! haha.. Went to the canteen to prepare for the studying programme. haha.. Poor Ezra.. haha.. I kept teasing him with his new-found name proudly presented to him by me!!! He's called MARY!! haha.. Had a whole lot of laughter at the canteen.. Mr Mooi treated my class PIZZAS!!! Yum yum.. It was REALLY NICE! Ate 3 pieces.. The whole lot of us from S13 were like having this mini party in this classroom. We didn't have the mind to study at all!! Mind too saturated for the day.. We were like having the time of our life.. Eating, laughing at stupid stuff.. Really crazy. haha!
Went back to canteen to TRY to resume studying.. I finished Static Forces MCQs for the TYS!! wEeZ... At least I got some stuff done.. ahaha..
Walked out of school with KY, Wilkson, and.... I don't know his name.. Damn crazy! 3 lame guys.. Goodness me.. Wilkson offered to help me check out the pre-ordering of Jay Chou's CD at HMV!!! WOW.. He even offered to help me get if there is stocks available!!! How cool is that!!! Didn't accept in the end.. Buying CDs at HMV is pure maddness.. It will be damn damn damn expensive.. I'm okay with no pictorial of JayChou.. haha!
I'm off to watch X MEN 2 on VCD!!!! BYE!!!! Can't wait to see Wolverine again!

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~~Thursday, July 29, 2004~~

10:25 PM

Winamp buzzing: Kimberly Locke feat Clay Aiken - Without You

Haha! Today started rather amusingly. Clara bursted into the Alumni Room scolding my "crush". I was like.. -___-""" Kolay played this stupid joke on her that I'd a new crush (true to a certain extent), and Clara's kpo nerve was tapped, and she kept bugging Kolay to tell her who.. And Kolay happily played along with the trick.. LOL.. And when she found out who's my crush, she was so ready to bang herself against the wall. haha!! Okay.. Tell you all who's my crush... He is tall, super duper cute, sexy deep voice, Singaporean, Chinese... His name is Huang Yi Da!!!! haha.. Clara kills me!!
Something really hilarious happened in school today. There was this monkey in the school compound!! It must have lost its way from his tribe in the wild.. It created such huge commotion at Block F.. At least that's what I heard.. Didn't manage to be part of it though.. I was stuck in the Physics lecture hall at that time.. Poor little monkey.. It's so frighten.. You should have seen it when it's in the cage.. It's sooooo scared.. Poor thing.. I hope they treats it well.. Don't kill it!!! It has a right to live too... *Pray and hope!*
Mom came to school today to see Mr Siraj.. haiz.. About my Mid-Year results of course.. Fair SO LOUSILY.. What do you expect? haiz.. I don't know.. Kinda was at the verge of crying actually.. Mr Siraj was worried that I'll be overly-stressed.. haha.. Oh well.. Nothing much actually.. I'm a good student, so I wouldn't be bad-mouthed. ^_^
Studied a lot for Chemistry today.. Oh well.. Hope things go well for the rest of you..
Here's one question I'd been wondering.. I heard this from one of our assembly.. A guy will sense that a girl is interested in him if she keeps sending him Good-Night messages.. Is it true? Guys please leave comments.. Girls welcome too..
It just came across my mind.. Thought this was like kinda untrue? I seem to be always sending those Good-Nite messages.. to everyone.. crush included, friends included. So it's like.. So.. untrue? LOL...
I'm going to watch Kindaichi!! Until the next time!

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~~Wednesday, July 28, 2004~~

9:34 PM

Winamp buzzing: Zhou Jie Lun - Qi Li Xiang
Mind lingering: X Men 2, Jay Chou's new album, Chemistry, STUDIES

Benny just sent me Jay Chou's new song from his new album, Qi Li Xiang!!! It's really nice!! AhHh!! It's a slow song.. Soothing.. His voice really can make you melt!! At least I melted when I hear his voice!!! OMG OMG!!! JAY CHOU ROCKS MY WORLD.. I tried going around to pre-order his album.. But to no avail.. SAD!! But it's alright I guess.. I don't really care about his pictorial.. I care more about his songs. I think this song is really nice.. Will update you all on what I think about his new album when I finally get hold of it.. I really hope that this album will be as good as "Fantasy".. I thought "Ye Hui Mei" isn't that successful.. As in, the songs ain't that fantastic, even though Qing Tian and Dong Feng Po really blew me off.. I still like "Kai Bu Liao Kou" and "Gui Ji" the best... They are the best of the BEST.
Oh! I bought X Men 2 VCD today.. I really give in to temptation really easily. Initially in the afternoon, I went for lunch with Eunice, Sheng Qiang and Xiao Hui at Lot 1.. Went to check out the CDs and VCDs with Eunice and Xiao Hui.. Saw X Men 2 VCD.. REALLY tempted to buy, especially when it's priced at only $12.90.. Asked them to sort of convinced me not to buy.. But it's been on my mind ever since!! Wolverine's face just lingers in my mind!!! haha..
I went back to school for the studying programme with Eunice while Xiao Hui went to play pool with his classmate.. Managed to do quite a bit.. Though I wasn't really concentrating.. I forgot to bring my pencil-case!! That's why.. I only managed to finish up the "Proteins" tutorial and some Chemistry MCQ..
When Sheng Qiang came out from his Chemistry class, he kept tempting me to go off, especially when I told him that I'm tempted to buy X Men 2 VCD.. Kept asking me to go home to study since I don't have my stationery and stuff.. hahaz.. Gave in.. Since I did quite a bit.. hahaz.. Went off with him and Eunice to go to Lot 1 to get the VCD!! WeEz!!! I'm feeling so DAMN HAPPY right now.. Wolverine makes my day.. He can really makes me happy!! He rocks! ^_^ We headed down to Westmall to eat Mos Burger.. haha.. Had a whole lot of fun time, talked TRASH..
Going to study REALLY HARD later.. I feel so super guilty for not staying till 9pm.. I just feel it's my responsibility to stay till 9pm.. Oh wellz...
After all these while.. I just realised that certain things changes.. Whether we like it or not.. But as we lose some things, we will gain some too.. Life is fair to a certain extent.. We shouldn't grumble.. We can't be selfish you know... Yupz...
Thinking of Jay Chou's new album makes next week worth anticipating.
The thought of watchin X Men 2 with some friends this weekend at my house makes weekend colourful.
Listening to Huang Yi Da's song sooth my stressed mind.. His sexy voice just blow me off!
Doing Chemistry for a long time makes me think that Chemistry is not too bad afterall.. I should learn to love it.. I think I do love it.
Seeing the NTUSU people doing Flag Day today gives me hope and motivation. Someday, I'll be one of them at NTU.
Somehow, life ain't that back afterall..

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~~Monday, July 26, 2004~~

10:37 PM

Winamp buzzing: Huang Yi Da - Lan Tian

Wolverine wolverine wolverine wolverine wolverine wolverine!!!! He's my kind of man.. ^_- Huang Yi Da's Lan Tian is really nice.. Fallen in love yet again!!! I saw the advertisement on Jay Chou's latest album, "Qi Li Xiang" last night while watching GTO.. OMG omg!!! Jay is getting more and more handsome.. I heard from Jocelyn that his latest hit is really nice!! WeEz.. Really anticipating his new album.
Actually I just reached home from the Night Studying Programme.. It is really fruitful actually. I managed to get quite a number of things done. I can now type this entry in peace.. And watch Lei Huo Xiong Xin in peace too.. *LOL*
School was pretty fine. I kept showing people the X Men 2 pin-up that I got from FiRST magazine last year.. I'm still wondering WHY I didn't go and watch X Men 2.. Must be really busy with council last year.. So didn't have time at all.. Sad sad... I'm going to find the VCD at this VCD renting shop quite near my house this weekend.. And if they have, I gonna rent it and watch it!!! haha.. Who want to join me?!!? =p
For dinner tonight, the class girls actually called in MacDonalds. WeEz.. I ate a bit.. Nuggets and fries.. So cool of us arh!! Felt so totally sticky at the end of the days.. And with all those night flies flying around the canteen at the end of the day.. So irritating..
HmMm.. Guess that's all for the day.. Nothing much.. I'm still crazy about Wolverine and Huang Yi Da's song.. hahaz..

To Keck Soon: To leave a note for me right.. You look at the end of every entry where I signed off, there's this word "Smile". Click on it, and you can leave me a note!! Yupz.. ^_^ I don't use tagboard~

Wolverine!!! This is my kind of guy...

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~~Sunday, July 25, 2004~~

10:04 PM

Winamp buzzing: Huang Yida - Ni Ming Bao Bei
Thinking of: Wolverine

AHHH!!!! I'm in love with WOLVERINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHhHhHhHhHhHhHh!!!!! Wolverine is soooooooooooooooooo cool when he fights!!!!!! SO MAN!!! Totally melts my heart!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Idiotic Sheng Qiang!!! He was irritating me just now.. >_< Keep making fun of me and the 2 most important men in my life right now!!! haha.. He calls Huang Yi Da "Yellow One Dozen".... ZzZz!!!!! And he calls Wolverine a "violent doggy"!!!! zhu tou lehz.. that Sheng Qiang.. Tomorrow gonna get back at him!!! haha..
I just realised that I missed X Men 2 last year.. Xiao Hui was telling me that X Men 2 was out already.. I was like, "Huh? Is it?" And I went to check.. Only to realise that it was out last year November... NO WONDER... Was SO busy with Grad Nite stuff last year.. Where got time for movie? haiz... I wanna watch!!! Gonna go find the VCD... Must find.. Got craving for X Men 2... Ahh..
AHhHhHh!!!! Wolverine still lingers in my mind right now!!!

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11:30 AM

Winamp buzzing: Huang Yi Da - Lan Tian

I really think that those website with pop-ups, spywares, malwares etc should BURN IN HELL. I think they are the most evil people on this entire universe. I HATE GETTING INFESTED WITH THIS KIND OF STUPID MALWARES. YOU ALL DESERVE TO GO TO HELL.
Luckily I've Ad-ware.. Thanks Jasper and Weide..
I've yet another weird dream last night. I remembered having this weird dream during the Mid-Year Examination period about me by-passing the cemetary. And, the utterly strange thing was that there was this strange guy in my dream.. As in.. I don't know him at all. Then, after that, I only learn to realise that he's a new PE teacher in school. Weird arh! Then, last night, he appeared in my dream again! I don't really know what was the dream about. It's so stupid to dream about a teacher. -____- No meaning at all.
I think those "Ga-Rang-Ru-Ni" coming to my block are THIEVES. Just last week, the old kettle that we used to water the plants was STOLEN. Then, just now, my brother realised that this metal tray that he used to put soil was stolen. And, the worst thing was that the soil was left all unattended on the ground. My brother and I had to clean up that whole mess. F-king shit right!
Gonna study and do work for the whole of today again. *SiGh*
Remember 3rd of Aug okay.. A VERY IMPORTANT DATE.
Huang Yida's songs are nice. Hee hee..
Jay Chou is the best.

To Gavin: How you know how the cover looks like?!?!?! Omg omg!!! Did you pre-order the album??? I feel like pre-ordering.. haha!

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~~Saturday, July 24, 2004~~

9:10 PM

Winamp buzzing - Huang Yi Da - Ni Ming De Bao Bei

AHHHH!!!!!! I tell you all, Huang Yi Da is DAMNNNNNNN CUTE. Hunky hunky!!
Getting to know about Huang Yi Da is totally a coincidence. I went to meet Kolay at the Burger King at IMM to do some studying. When I reached there, I realised that there was this stage set up at the centre.. Near BK.. AND, there was this HUGE picture of WILLIAM HUNG.. *Horror* At the end, we realised that there was some contest going on at 12pm, "A Date with William Hung".. The contestants need to do some stuff to win for themselves a trip to Hong Kong to meet William Hung.. OMG.. Damn gross okay.. For the whole of like.. 2 hours, we heard lots of "She Bang (William Hung version)".. I think the contestants were trying to do that infamous "She Bang" dance... GOODNESS.. I didn't go and watch... I'm still sane. We were tortured with lots of William Hung songs... God help us!!!
Then, when that contest was finally over, the adminstrator seemed to have changed the display picture.. Lots of girls screamed at that time.. I was like wondering who would be coming after that.. And Kolay told me that Huang Yi Da would be coming.. I was like, "Orh.. I go see how he looked like." I went to see him display picture.. HmMm... Not bad.. Kinda cute..!! HAHAHA..
At 5pm, he arrived.. LOTS OF GIRLS SCREAMED.. GOODNESS... I was like kinda curious how he looks like real-life.. So I went to look at him when he was singing this rock song.. call "Xian Shang You Xi".. OMG.. He's REALLY CUTE in real-life... And he's tall.. hahaha.. He got really manly voice.. Very deep.. I like! I was so captivated.
Kolay and I went to watch for a while when he was singing "Ni Ming De Bao Bei".. A really nice song. Go check out his songs when you all have the chance!!!!!
After much studying.. Or rather.. Doing of GP Essay outlines... Kolay and I left at around 6pm.. We went to look for CDs.. OMG.. Can you believe it? TSC is selling some CDs at $9.90... The CDs of Jolin.. F.I.R.. 5566.. JAY CHOU MV CD... I was there looking for the latest Jay Chou CD.. Didn't know exactly when it will be out... I just asked Millard. He said it will be out on the 3rd August 2004!!!! REMEMBER THAT DATE OKAY PEOPLE!!!!!!!

Jay Chou's latest CD will be out on the 3rd Aug '04!!!!!
WeEz.. Jay Chou rocks... He's still the BEST..

Huang Yi Da

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~~Friday, July 23, 2004~~

9:37 PM

Winamp buzzing: McFly - Obviously

Friday!! I just looooooooooooove Fridays. It marks the end of week! WeEz...
This week has been a really tiring week. I mean emotionally. Lots of things happened or rather, lots of things started to surface. I had such long talk with Kolay and Sheng Qiang. Really nice to talk to and listen to them.
Lessons ended at around 5.30pm.. I'm so piled up with homework and homework and more homework for this weekend.. GP alone is enough to kill.. *SiGh* Never mind.. I'm hanging on!
Lots and lots and lots of things are on my mind.. Things that people say, things that people do, things that people feel..
Sometimes, things come and go.. We got to learn to live with that principle.
Sometimes, I don't understand myself at all.. The things that I do, the reactions towards people, my attitude, my actions.. Sometimes, I really think that my body and words function without my brain. I'll just say things, and do things out of my expectation.. haiz.. This is what we call do things without using your brain. Sometimes, I really hate myself.. When things begin to feel different from before, I'll just run away and hide. Avoid any possibilities. I'm such an ostrich.. Just dug a hole and hide, and think that people won't know.. I don't know I don't know..
Maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Yes, I must be.

RYN: Yunz.. I'll be just leaving that cjb.net website there to rot and disintegrate on it's own.. I'm no longer using it.. Too much pop-ups and spywares there.. Sucks totally.

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~~Thursday, July 22, 2004~~

7:10 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ou De Yang - Xiu Xiu Xiu

I love my winamp.. It will always know which song I really want to listen.. I'd been humming this song in school today.
Today is a short and kinda relax day. I was called to meet Big Daddy together with this whole lot of students... Really ALOT... It was regarding the Night Studying Programme that will be starting next week.. It's gonna last for 2 months plus.. Gonna only leave school only at 9pm.. Kinda late.. But it's beneficial, so I shouldn't grumble. One thing I'll miss more will be home-cooked dinner.. AH..
I'd this long 3 hours break today. I was doing Chemistry until Shi Ting decided to become a bit of a nutty.. She was initially complaining about someone she is "bu shuang" with. Kolay and I got a bit of her hyperactiveness and we 3 just kept laughing at some stupid hokkien names that we were translating. Mad arh? Maybe studied a bit too much, and our brains just went bonkers. The best one was Sheng Qiang's name. We translated his name into something like "Seng Kheong".. Damn hilarious. Sheng Qiang was supposed to meet us during his lunch break, so we actually used this new-found name to disturb him.. He must be SOOO extremely "lamed to death" by us..
I didn't stay in school to study for today (there are plenty of chance for me to study in school for the next 2 months.. Have fun..). I went to meet Mom cuz I really want to cut hair!!! I layered my hair!! Really like how it turns out (Thank God!!). I was so fearful of cutting hair, especially after Xiao Hui's mishap at his barber, and Beryl telling me about her "accident" at the hairdresser some years back.. It's VERY OBVIOUS that I'd cut my hair.. A substantial amount was cut off my locks. I'd been complaining about my hair getting too heavy for more than a week.. Poor Kolay and Eileen.. Been hearing me complaining about my hair.. Sorry girls. I was really scared that the weight of my hair will somehow pull my hairline backwards, and reveal more of my forehead.. I already have relatively high forehead.. I don't want it to get even more higher.. >_<
Gonna do serious studying later at night!! Just pray and hope that I stay awake.. Think I'll fall asleep.. Maybe you all can consider wake-up calls.. LOL.. Heading for my dinner now.. *Droolz*

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~~Wednesday, July 21, 2004~~

10:27 PM

Winamp buzzing: Ben Jelen - Come On

Another day worth me pondering about.. Lots of things that people had said, and done.. Affected me quite a bit.. Maybe Mr Siraj is right afterall... No wonder they always say it's better to listen to the older people..
I just saw Yong Cheng's nick on MSN... Part of it reads: Everyone needs to feel appreciated. So true. I let the cynical part of me took over me today. When people don't appreciate you, forget it. It's simply not worth my braincells and time.. I'll rather use those braincells and time on Chemistry.. At least Chemistry appreciates me... By spending more time on it, I'd improved 5%! Wow.. What an analogy.
Today was actually a rather pleasant day.. It's Smart Causual Day today too.. It was in conjunction with some American comedy drama groups... Wore sandals today!!! It was kinda against the regulations, but I still wore it. I was showing off my evilish BLACK toe nails.. hahahaz.. I love them. Not everyone admires black toe nails like me.. haha.. Its okay.. Ed says I looked poisoned. A lot of others shocked at my extreme colour liking, and Lena actually says that's gothic.. hahaz.. Mom hasn't seen my black toe nails.. I think she's so gonna be shock. hee hee...
Been really hardworking today.. I went to the school library with Clara and Kolay to study... hahaz.. Studied till 5.30pm.. Then went to continue with it in the school canteen till 7pm.. WeEzz..
I love to tell people this: Sometimes, something is just so simple. Don't think of it as so complicated... I don't like complicated stuff... Simple and sweet always suit me.. That's why I hate changes.. Humans are flawed.. So am I..
Oh well.. I'm a cynical person, and I'm sorry about it.

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~~Tuesday, July 20, 2004~~

9:39 PM

Winamp buzzing: Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows but I guess it shows when you look into my eyes...

Today is a terrible day... Simply terrible... I could barely smile at anything at all... I feel so saturated.. A lot of things on my mind.. Schoolwork of course.. And other tiny little irritating stuff... They shouldn't be even in my mind right now... Damn it.. Just don't know why it keeps staying in my mind... Couldn't stop thinking about it.. It's so haunting me.. *SiGh*
"Big Daddy" talked to us today.. The whole lot of JC2s... He gave us the magic number... 90... 90 days more to A Levels.. Be scared.. Be afraid... Be VERY afraid...Yes, indeed.. I am.. I'm VERY EXTREMELY afraid.. scared.. and stressed.. No kidding. I am.
Throughout the day.. I was feeling so extremely stressed out completely.. Those talk.. Supposed to motivate me to be more hardworking, and go on some studying.. Ya.. It did...
During GP lesson.. Mr Siraj talked about it again.. I was on the verge of tears.. I really am.. No one noticed.. Perhaps only Kolay.. She was sitting next to me then..
Felt terrible for the whole day.. Was trying to be as natural the whole day.. Studied with Alicia, Xiao Wen, Eileen and Yin Chong for a while and went to do Maths in Alumni Room alone..
A lot was on my mind today... I feel saturated.. So saturated.........
Oh yes.. I'm in the complusory studying programme.. Night study programme... 4pm to 9pm.. Gonna see when less of me, and more of me studying..
Motivation.. is what I need... I hope I feel better soon..
I'm off... Watching Smallville...

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~~Monday, July 19, 2004~~

7:41 PM

Winamp buzzing: McFly - Obviously

What a song.. So romantic.. Backstreet Boys sing the BEST ballets...
Today is a rather complicated day.. Filled with a lot of emotions.. At least school was pretty fine.. Lectures and tutorials were per norm. It was the end of the day that every bit of me just feel so.. emotional suddenly? I don't know how to put it in words!!!
Seriously, I think this being call man is so hard to comprehend sometimes... I just don't get it!!! I think they are really like a bunch of... emotionless creatures maybe? *shake head* Sometimes, the girls just don't get it.. Man are weird creatures.
Feeling that something might be going to happen soon... Don't know.. Just feeling.. Clara stunned me when she told me that so-and-so mentioned about me and him. I don't remember myself telling people about it other than some close friends... I just don't wish that anyone will gossip about it cuz its so totally not true... As least now... Perhaps it was true.. But it isn't now.. No more.. *Sistas... If you 2 are reading right.. Please do not mention his name here anymore... Moreover, its a public blog now... yea... *
Sometimes, I feel like I'm the one who always seem to avoiding... Yes, I always the one... It's been quite a while since I last had SMS marathon, and I'm glad. I want to keep it this way.
I may be talking in weird languages or riddles to some of you.. I'm sorry. For those who knows what I'm talking about, good for you.
I was so totally.. frustrated (maybe?) this afternoon... Just feel a heavy weight at heart.. Must apologise to KY.. I wanted to vent my frustration, and I just threw the one of the Alumni Room pillow at him.. haha...
I'm frustrated. I'm scared. I'm confused. I'm scared. I'm scared, and I'm still scared.
ArGh... I went to punch people again.
Brrrrrr........ Never mind... I feel evil... I have black toe nails. I love them. I just painted them.

McFly - Obviously
Recently i've been
hopelessly reaching out for this girl
Who's out of this world...
Believe me

She's got a boyfriend
He drives her round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me

For so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now

Cos obviously she's out of my league
But how can i win
She keeps dragging me in
And i know
I never will be good enough for her
No no I never will be good enough for her

Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now
Yeah Off to L.A
And that's where i'll stay
For two years

Put her behind me (put her behind me)
And go to a place where she can't find me

Cos obviously she's out of my league
I'm wasting my time
Cos she'll never be mine
And i know I never will be good enough for her
No no I never will be good enough for her

She's out of my hands
And i never know where i stand
Cos i'm not good enough for her
Good enough for her x6

Cos obviously she's out of my league
I'm wasting my time Cos she'll never be mine
And i know I never will be good enough for her
Cos obviously she's out of my league
But how can i winShe keeps dragging me in
And i know I never will be good enough for her
Cos obviously she's out of my league
I'm wasting my time
Cos she'll never be mine
And i know i never will be good enough for her
No noI never will be good enough for her

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~~Sunday, July 18, 2004~~

10:19 PM

Winamp buzzing: Alicia Keys - Howcome You Don't Call Me?

I really liking Alicia Keys' music more and more.. In fact, I'm liking r&b music more and more... I used to think that r&b music really sucks and really don't understand why people will like.. haha!
Sunday once again.. I'm still working on some miscellaneous stuff on this blog.. Really enjoying doing it. hahaz.. Past-time..
I'm really thinking that there might be something wrong with me.. Those constant headaches that I started to get recently. It's bad getting headaches you know.. You can't get anything done, and you feel really frustrated with everything.
I feel that I'm really lack of motivation.. Really need to remind myself each day, and each moment what I want in life, and not go off-track... I'll tend to forget my "goals".. It's not as if that I don't have one.. Just lack of motivation to work towards it..
Time really flies when you were having fun. And it is going to be faster now.. With those on-coming studying programmes, remedials, practicals... etc etc...
My life is gone. It's now going to just revolve around TYS, notes, books... studies...
*Sigh* I hate the system here. Everything is so stressful, fast, competitive, and God-knows-what.. Survival of the fittest... When you're not, you're gone. There's gotta be more to life!!!
*Haiz* No point grumbling now. I feel so stuck in this rigid education system.
Anyhow.. Just live with it.. Gotta make this life worthwhile.
------- 12.37pm

Winamp buzzing: Christina Milian - Dip it Low

*Sigh* My Sunday just come and go like that... Got to wake up at 5.45am once again for the next 5 days... I simply detest waking up early... NOT ENOUGH SLEEP!!! Doesn't school know that sleep is very important for a normal human being? One human being needs an average of 8 hours per day... Well... They may say, "Sleep early!" Ya-da ya-da... With the amount of work you get in school, and the amount of revision you need to do... Can't possibly sleep early right... *Sigh* Screwed up system.
I wonder why I'm being so hostile today.. Seem to keep complaining about this kind of minor things.. hmm... Somehow.. Maybe I finally find the "me" who have been lost for sometime.. It feels like I've found a long-lost friend.. The "bad" me.. Somehow.. This "me" seem to have gone missing for quite sometimes... Went for hibernation perhaps... For several reasons... like people of course.. But now, I no longer need to please anyone except myself.. Cuz it's not important anymore to please that person... Not anymore, at least for the moment.
Sometimes, we just have to give up the thing we wanted most. How true. Didn't we always do that?
I'm dropping a lot of hair nowadays.. Too much stress. Hate it.

Defense is paper thin. Just one touch and I'd be in too deep now to ever swim against the current...

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~~Saturday, July 17, 2004~~

9:33 PM

Winamp buzzing: Nicole Kidman feat Ewan Mcgregor - Come What May

Come What May
I will love you... until my dying day...

Okay... I changed layout.. Amelia told me that a lot of other people were using that previous layout too, so I changed to my ever-favourite romance movie: Moulin Rouge!!!!!!! LOVE that movie... It rocks totally doesn't it! So romantic... but unrealistic.. But who cares?
Feeling better now. At least that feverish feeling is gone. It better be! I took medicine diligently for the whole day..
Hmm... I still love this layout.. Think it rocks. haha! I've good taste, that's why.

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2:19 PM

Winamp buzzing: Dashboard Confessional: Vindicated

Well, decided to change to move to blogspot.. I'll keep the opendiary account though, to leave notes for the pals writing there.. Just don't feel like writing there anymore.. Looking for a change. Blogspot is nice.. I like this layout.. Still wondering how to create my own blogskin.. It won't be too difficult for me.. haha.. Actually, know how to do it la.. But feeling lazy right now.. But ain't this layout sweet and neat? Hee.. It's always nice to be lazy.
I'm feeling feverish. I was initially LAZY to go to school with Kolay today to get some past year papers.. I wanted to sleep, so told her I won't be going anymore.. Also won't be turning up at Yin Chong's church talent-time.. Lazy to go again... Thinking of all those travelling from Jurong West to Somerset gives me headache... *Sigh* I guess the laziness got into me.. Slept all the way up to 11am, and feeling more tired than ever.. Touched my forehead, and it's warm.. Darn.. haiz... Tough luck...
I'll update again.

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